Submissions by Darkness_follows (Maximilian M.)

I´m not sure what this... What this is will be...
Maybe in the end someone knows.
Sitting in my room at 12 pm listening to a song, which makes me think a lot about my life.
But i cant sort out whats right and whats wrong.
I should be proud of what i achieved in my life, but there is always this strange feeling that nothing is going to be right.
Im feeling anger, hate, disappointment, anxiety.
I want to scream, destroy my room but im sitting here -calm like snow- on my chair and write these lines.
So many things to think about...
So many things to...

When the sun goes down,
my heart begins to drown.
The shadows get longer
my hate is gettin stronger
on the life i life.

Everyone is peacefully sleeping
in their safe houses,
while my brain is just creeping.
im walking through the cold night
trying to fight my tormenting demons.

I want to scream for help
but theres nothin more then a little yelp
comin out of my sealed mouth.

The voices beside me
tell me to die
i cant refuse
that there is nothin more to lose
so no one would miss me,
if i would die in this...

I should have been much stronger
to life this life longer.
but it had reached a point,
where it all ended.

My soul died at this day.
A broken child left alone!
I didnt find the right way
home to my safe place.
I assumed the darkness into my own
transforming my heart into stone.

I saw you inside of my soul
-The Demon-
hiding in the darkest corner of my shattered soul.
you tried to kill my innermost feelings
and my faith in everything good.
But there wasnt anything left to slay
in your way down to the core.
...