Submissions by Braver_Than_A_Noun (Andie...)

To whom it may concern,

All I want to be is
The one you miss from time to time

When you’re out with your friends or back at your folk’s place
When you feel more alone with them than you do yourself anyway
I want to be your warm welcome

All I want to be is the first person you call on the phone
When you find yourself panicked, shaken, and alone, Unable to sleep
I'll tell you . . . “I’m here.”

Can’t you see me? Because I see you.

Maybe you can see me.
But you can’t hear the words coming out of my mouth. ...

Mom said my head was messed up
She dragged me out of the house
Mom said I was going to boarding school
She left me in a strange-looking hospital

Now I’m out of that place
I’m free to chase all of the dreams I have
Except they’ll never come true
I fell asleep on the bus ride home

I don’t want to wake up
I’ll never wake up
I never woke up

She says my head’s messed up
I’ll never let her take me from my bed again
I’m not made for the life I live
But I swear, I never meant to hurt anyone

I wrote a song before you came home
I never showed it to anyone
Even though I probably should have

And I still remember the beginning of the first verse
“I’m getting clean for you”
You know I wanted to get clean again
So goddamn desperately

And you know, if I did we could be happy
I did it once before
I can do it again
But I didn’t

And I just wanted to say that I’m sorry
Because I never got clean for you
Like I wanted to do so desperately

And Maybe One Day
I’ll shed this stupid body
Let...