Submissions by BlueBeastGirl (Beasty)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just don't know.
pied piper's nostalgic needle
You were so precise in the actions you took
Played my feelings as you do your guitar
Upping that silvery nostalgic drip to the max
Feeding me memories that only we know
Drip by drip, cord by cord you were skillful
In knowing me the way that only you do
Of course, of course I'd remember it all
I handed you my arm to get that needled hit
Danced to the sound of your pied piper song
How pathetic I must have been to conniving you
How mockingly easy it was to get my guard down
I viewed you as a friend and that was a mistake
Using nostalgic...
Played my feelings as you do your guitar
Upping that silvery nostalgic drip to the max
Feeding me memories that only we know
Drip by drip, cord by cord you were skillful
In knowing me the way that only you do
Of course, of course I'd remember it all
I handed you my arm to get that needled hit
Danced to the sound of your pied piper song
How pathetic I must have been to conniving you
How mockingly easy it was to get my guard down
I viewed you as a friend and that was a mistake
Using nostalgic...
#lies
#betrayal
#emotional
#hurt
#weakness
190 reads
6 Comments
Hidden Emotional States
Where is my joy?
I have buried it in a coffee tin in the back yard
Because when it is brought into the light
It is too exposed to the rain that would extinguish it
Where is my happiness?
It's in the linen closet wedged between the sheets
Far from hands that could rip it apart like tissues
Because I can't put it back together the flittering pieces
Where is my peace?
It's in the fridge by the frozen blueberries
Crystalized and fuzzy from years of...
I have buried it in a coffee tin in the back yard
Because when it is brought into the light
It is too exposed to the rain that would extinguish it
Where is my happiness?
It's in the linen closet wedged between the sheets
Far from hands that could rip it apart like tissues
Because I can't put it back together the flittering pieces
Where is my peace?
It's in the fridge by the frozen blueberries
Crystalized and fuzzy from years of...
#happiness
#secrets
#honesty
#aging
#separation
224 reads
9 Comments
the love you deserve
You deserve someone who is so peaceful it glows from within
Someone who is so steady in their mental fortitude that you can crumble
That you can open your mouth and everything that hurts falls out
And all that they do is smile and pull you closer
The ability to sooth innately in their soft hands
Their love so everlasting and sweet they write about it in history books
Someone who is so steady in their mental fortitude that you can crumble
That you can open your mouth and everything that hurts falls out
And all that they do is smile and pull you closer
The ability to sooth innately in their soft hands
Their love so everlasting and sweet they write about it in history books
#heartbroken
#ILoveYou
#honesty
#support
#bittersweet
518 reads
7 Comments
sometimes the caterpillar wants to die
#suicide
#illness
#FeelingTrapped
#disability
#weakness
233 reads
4 Comments
Oh, to write bad poetry
These maggots dragged from my brain
Squirming and wiggling all over the page
Descriptions of images choppy and murky
Following along the scribbles into insanity
Hyper focus on love and sadness... Negativity
Does it pacing matter? You'll never read it out loud
Carved with my fingers onto a screen
Barely reread and barely grammatical
Commas, periods, ellipsis, apostrophe
The enemy of desperation and quick thinking
Smears of consciousness folded into the swans
Bursting through to your side of the screen
These thoughts just...
Squirming and wiggling all over the page
Descriptions of images choppy and murky
Following along the scribbles into insanity
Hyper focus on love and sadness... Negativity
Does it pacing matter? You'll never read it out loud
Carved with my fingers onto a screen
Barely reread and barely grammatical
Commas, periods, ellipsis, apostrophe
The enemy of desperation and quick thinking
Smears of consciousness folded into the swans
Bursting through to your side of the screen
These thoughts just...
#anxiety
#frustration
#escape
#SelfWorth
#vulnerability
206 reads
2 Comments
a note I'll never send
All of my friends know your name
They grimace at the way my mouth moves to say it
And beneath the knowing look I sink into myself
I want to defend you so, so badly
Say that you've changed, that you've grown
But I don't know what to say in the moment
Because how would I know if that's true?
It has been so long since I've been around
Your presence is so different to me now
So different but so, so familiar to me
The shape of your smile... That laugh
But have you really changed that much?
They have all told me to not trust you ...
They grimace at the way my mouth moves to say it
And beneath the knowing look I sink into myself
I want to defend you so, so badly
Say that you've changed, that you've grown
But I don't know what to say in the moment
Because how would I know if that's true?
It has been so long since I've been around
Your presence is so different to me now
So different but so, so familiar to me
The shape of your smile... That laugh
But have you really changed that much?
They have all told me to not trust you ...
#sadness
#regret
#forgiveness
#denial
#obsession
237 reads
3 Comments
Pigeon
Please... Leave my dreams
It's easier when I'm awake
Shooing away the thoughts like pigeons
Placing different spikes to dissuade them
That unconscious insistence of simply you
I'm incapable of fighting it's hold
You're always there in my dreams
Pigeon love... So quick to forget pain
It's easier when I'm awake
Shooing away the thoughts like pigeons
Placing different spikes to dissuade them
That unconscious insistence of simply you
I'm incapable of fighting it's hold
You're always there in my dreams
Pigeon love... So quick to forget pain
#love
#heartbroken
#birds
#FeelingTrapped
#obsession
234 reads
6 Comments
Not There Touch
You're always there
In my mind and in my dreams
A haunting ghost of a presence
As if your mind is projecting
Reaching out to touch me
Floating caressing... Supernatural
I feel you though you are not here
In my mind and in my dreams
A haunting ghost of a presence
As if your mind is projecting
Reaching out to touch me
Floating caressing... Supernatural
I feel you though you are not here
#loneliness
#ghosts
#sensual
#temptation
#obsession
324 reads
4 Comments
writings in books
Little girl curled up with her maroon poetry book
Small dog eared pages pinched with care
Tear stained paper from nights that haunt
The faint names barely legible because she
Gently and with the softest precision in pencil
Wrote names by the ones that were inspiring
Poetry the only way to find the words
Poetry was the only way out of her mind
Small dog eared pages pinched with care
Tear stained paper from nights that haunt
The faint names barely legible because she
Gently and with the softest precision in pencil
Wrote names by the ones that were inspiring
Poetry the only way to find the words
Poetry was the only way out of her mind
#teens
#MyInspiration
#WritingPoetry #reading
#WritingPoetry #reading
265 reads
8 Comments
Trauma Symbols Everyone
Fishing line dragged from the dirt
Pink, red and blue knotted around
Fish bones, lures and worms
The more you pull the more it comes
Bigger and bigger it will reveal it all
And it will never, never stop just watch
Rotting bones of brown, white and grey
Lures glittering in the clear sunlight
Painted sightless eyes and eyes that follow
Glowing gummy worms all shapes, all colors
Flashing tear shaped metal, bronze, silver, gold
Up and up it comes from the depths of muck
Pink, red and blue knotted around
Fish bones, lures and worms
The more you pull the more it comes
Bigger and bigger it will reveal it all
And it will never, never stop just watch
Rotting bones of brown, white and grey
Lures glittering in the clear sunlight
Painted sightless eyes and eyes that follow
Glowing gummy worms all shapes, all colors
Flashing tear shaped metal, bronze, silver, gold
Up and up it comes from the depths of muck
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
#despair
#nightmares
#hurt
266 reads
4 Comments
I wish, I wish
I'm always drowning in the sorrow of wishing I kissed you
I wish I could kiss you enough times to make up for all our missed chances
Kiss you for the little girl who went from hate to love
Warm kisses in tents, cold kisses in rain
To just feel your lips on mine once more
You tried before... Cant you try again...
My heart keeps begging please please
As if my pleas in my mind could reach you
If I could touch you and have all my emotions
Stain you through my palms I would
I wish, I wish I have a million wishes for us
I wish I could kiss you enough times to make up for all our missed chances
Kiss you for the little girl who went from hate to love
Warm kisses in tents, cold kisses in rain
To just feel your lips on mine once more
You tried before... Cant you try again...
My heart keeps begging please please
As if my pleas in my mind could reach you
If I could touch you and have all my emotions
Stain you through my palms I would
I wish, I wish I have a million wishes for us
#grief
#loneliness
#shame
#obsession
#bittersweet
256 reads
4 Comments
Escapism You
I have drowned in this fantasy all too often
You holding me as the sun comes up
Casting long sliver shadows through the shades
The blankets wrapped around our legs
You bite my shoulder and I laugh pushing you off
My attempts at leaving the bed are foiled by
Your quickness to capture me seamless
Holding me hostage with light kisses
It's this mist of intimacy I drown in
Hundreds of dreams featuring you
Thousands and thousands of daydreams
You live in my mind in an endless escape world
Could reality be better than the you in my mind? ...
You holding me as the sun comes up
Casting long sliver shadows through the shades
The blankets wrapped around our legs
You bite my shoulder and I laugh pushing you off
My attempts at leaving the bed are foiled by
Your quickness to capture me seamless
Holding me hostage with light kisses
It's this mist of intimacy I drown in
Hundreds of dreams featuring you
Thousands and thousands of daydreams
You live in my mind in an endless escape world
Could reality be better than the you in my mind? ...
#anxiety
#love
#honesty
#bittersweet
#fear
337 reads
7 Comments
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