Submissions by BloodyDrums (Chipoko)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I put down what i think, i record most of it, but not on ink, audio or video. If i could, I'd submit everyday, but some things are better left unread, until another day
SELF POEM
Published
19th Nov 2021 7:46pm
19th Nov 2021 7:46pm
I
I feel like I'm bated and twisted
hopeless and sickly
but that is not me
who am I supposed to be?
sometimes I wish I could be free
from all this anxiety
gripping my sanity
heart wrenching and shaking
that's not me
not someone I'm supposed to be
all of me fake
playing this game
what if the game played me?
what if I've already lost and I have to leave?
all of it is at stake
what if if I fail to be the person my father wants me to be?
my heart is constantly breaking
I feel like I'm...
hopeless and sickly
but that is not me
who am I supposed to be?
sometimes I wish I could be free
from all this anxiety
gripping my sanity
heart wrenching and shaking
that's not me
not someone I'm supposed to be
all of me fake
playing this game
what if the game played me?
what if I've already lost and I have to leave?
all of it is at stake
what if if I fail to be the person my father wants me to be?
my heart is constantly breaking
I feel like I'm...
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
572 reads
5 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2018 00:36am
22nd Oct 2018 00:36am
TRASH in the MASSES
I have to remind myself that not all men are trash
Because my father is a good man
I have to remind myself that not all men are trash
Because I have dated men who respect me
I have to remind myself that not all men are trash
Because you cannot paint everyone with the same colour
It's not that easy.
A lot of them make it so arousing to fall into that line of thinking
Some men do shit that makes my stomach queasy
They do things out of insecurity
Instability
Most times I will sit there and think, really?
Really? ...
Because my father is a good man
I have to remind myself that not all men are trash
Because I have dated men who respect me
I have to remind myself that not all men are trash
Because you cannot paint everyone with the same colour
It's not that easy.
A lot of them make it so arousing to fall into that line of thinking
Some men do shit that makes my stomach queasy
They do things out of insecurity
Instability
Most times I will sit there and think, really?
Really? ...
#women
#men
#humankind
664 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Oct 2017 9:37pm
26th Oct 2017 9:37pm
Dear J
Here is to the only person who knows me
the only one who got to genuinely care
here is to the boy that loved
entered me into his life
and kept me there
as long as i would have him
as long as he could
he knew everything
from a person who shared a lot of nothing
pretends like she doesn't care about anything
he knows
he cared
he loved and lost
and so did i.
I will never stop loving you
my first love
your name is stitched in my heart.
the only one who got to genuinely care
here is to the boy that loved
entered me into his life
and kept me there
as long as i would have him
as long as he could
he knew everything
from a person who shared a lot of nothing
pretends like she doesn't care about anything
he knows
he cared
he loved and lost
and so did i.
I will never stop loving you
my first love
your name is stitched in my heart.
#love
#boyfriend
#relationships
#breakup
#lover
669 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
6th Aug 2017 00:42am
6th Aug 2017 00:42am
Is this right?
I am sorry that i don't know
i don't know what to do
I'm not sure
how to love you
i don't trust you
with the way the world is going
I'm not sure you are even straight
but with you it feels right
it feels safe
logical, in a drama free way
ughhh
I'm a shit girlfriend that i know
help me stabilize on this slippery slope
I've become a natural born dope
ohhh
beautiful marijuana
what a beautiful name you own
wont you help me seduce this boy
we've barely touched each other intimately ...
i don't know what to do
I'm not sure
how to love you
i don't trust you
with the way the world is going
I'm not sure you are even straight
but with you it feels right
it feels safe
logical, in a drama free way
ughhh
I'm a shit girlfriend that i know
help me stabilize on this slippery slope
I've become a natural born dope
ohhh
beautiful marijuana
what a beautiful name you own
wont you help me seduce this boy
we've barely touched each other intimately ...
#relationships
#nature
#marijuana
663 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
3rd Jan 2017 4:14pm
3rd Jan 2017 4:14pm
Something I've been meaning to tell you
I kind of want to kill you
and I'm not sure why
its a little funny feeling
all I want to do is watch you die.
it's not that I hate you
or want these urges to continue
I just want to watch you die
to see an end to your existence
pretty fucked up right?
well maybe I'll just say
it's your fault that you entered my life
that your crossed my eye
that your ran through my mind
and made me conjure up images
of your chest impaled by a knife
Nah that sounds kind of rude
it doesn't seem very nice
but I guess there is no...
and I'm not sure why
its a little funny feeling
all I want to do is watch you die.
it's not that I hate you
or want these urges to continue
I just want to watch you die
to see an end to your existence
pretty fucked up right?
well maybe I'll just say
it's your fault that you entered my life
that your crossed my eye
that your ran through my mind
and made me conjure up images
of your chest impaled by a knife
Nah that sounds kind of rude
it doesn't seem very nice
but I guess there is no...
830 reads
5 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Jan 2017 3:46pm
3rd Jan 2017 3:46pm
Been a minute (poet block)
so its been a minute
writer's block got me on stop
these days my mind doesn't race a lot
i guess my heart just isn't in it.
ghhhaaaa what to say?
at least i manged to leave the bed today
it was just to the kitchen
but ANYWAY
at least my sadness isn't paining
so yay.
it's a new year, the sun has a new ray
so i really can't complain
not a new me,
but I'm going to try and do things differently
maybe even write some more poetry
let goooo of this apathy
after all,
I've been doing quite some fancy smiling
and less...
writer's block got me on stop
these days my mind doesn't race a lot
i guess my heart just isn't in it.
ghhhaaaa what to say?
at least i manged to leave the bed today
it was just to the kitchen
but ANYWAY
at least my sadness isn't paining
so yay.
it's a new year, the sun has a new ray
so i really can't complain
not a new me,
but I'm going to try and do things differently
maybe even write some more poetry
let goooo of this apathy
after all,
I've been doing quite some fancy smiling
and less...
619 reads
0 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Aug 2016 9:45pm
20th Aug 2016 9:45pm
Another Nocturnal Journey
staring again
blank in the air
the darkness freeing
i'm all alone
here in my home
its happiness
sucking the air
i'm almost there,
its chilling me
nipping my skin
eating me up
feeling like a withered
..
it's happening
i'm floating
numbing there in the blankness
i'm going
its all happening
look what what i see
look what is
it's nothingness
it's only me
downing this drink
in somberness
no need to cry
just glassy eyes
i'm over it
sitting here just zoning
and i don't know...
blank in the air
the darkness freeing
i'm all alone
here in my home
its happiness
sucking the air
i'm almost there,
its chilling me
nipping my skin
eating me up
feeling like a withered
..
it's happening
i'm floating
numbing there in the blankness
i'm going
its all happening
look what what i see
look what is
it's nothingness
it's only me
downing this drink
in somberness
no need to cry
just glassy eyes
i'm over it
sitting here just zoning
and i don't know...
620 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
17th Aug 2016 4:32pm
17th Aug 2016 4:32pm
One of the Real Ones
i think of you
silly me
it was i who didn't want to see it through
and you who left me to be
i don't want you back
i'm better off alone
but i still have those nights
the aches
where i stare at your face on my phone
we used to think we were so different
together forever
strongest support system eva
fruitless adolescence
how cute
seemingly true
but that shit is over
and i'm feeling lost
i don't know who i am without you
corny it is
to think of forever bliss
with you i turned into something new
i...
silly me
it was i who didn't want to see it through
and you who left me to be
i don't want you back
i'm better off alone
but i still have those nights
the aches
where i stare at your face on my phone
we used to think we were so different
together forever
strongest support system eva
fruitless adolescence
how cute
seemingly true
but that shit is over
and i'm feeling lost
i don't know who i am without you
corny it is
to think of forever bliss
with you i turned into something new
i...
760 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2015 6:22pm
2nd Jul 2015 6:22pm
DIsoRienTated
I am.....
i am a daughter
undecided
mind fucked to the brink of life
i am a broken bottle
that eats itself, trying to put back what owned inside
i am tearful but not crying
i taste the teardrop on my lip
and bite it
so it doesnt escape
any further
from the place i scold it to die
i.....i am wanting to dissipate
to be free of this black and white
these thick lines
unmoving time
head banging on clawless hands
that hold everything but a wanted prize
i am... a daughter of God
a sinner of his house
a sinner of life...
i am a daughter
undecided
mind fucked to the brink of life
i am a broken bottle
that eats itself, trying to put back what owned inside
i am tearful but not crying
i taste the teardrop on my lip
and bite it
so it doesnt escape
any further
from the place i scold it to die
i.....i am wanting to dissipate
to be free of this black and white
these thick lines
unmoving time
head banging on clawless hands
that hold everything but a wanted prize
i am... a daughter of God
a sinner of his house
a sinner of life...
781 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jun 2015 9:12pm
18th Jun 2015 9:12pm
Noose
i am hanginging there
between life and reason
between air and seasons
lock and freedom
its not a far fall
just a long journey
that sees me queazing
irregular breathin'
i...i miss you since the day that you were gone
since my mum murdered you
and told me to get my life along
i get it
its fucked up
got shit luck
stuck in this rut
im guilty but its not me who messed up
can you look through these swolen eyes
and prove to me im spewing lies
DONT TELL ME TO SUCK IT UP
if i did, my fist would be inches deep in that pink...
between life and reason
between air and seasons
lock and freedom
its not a far fall
just a long journey
that sees me queazing
irregular breathin'
i...i miss you since the day that you were gone
since my mum murdered you
and told me to get my life along
i get it
its fucked up
got shit luck
stuck in this rut
im guilty but its not me who messed up
can you look through these swolen eyes
and prove to me im spewing lies
DONT TELL ME TO SUCK IT UP
if i did, my fist would be inches deep in that pink...
1021 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Apr 2015 00:11am
27th Apr 2015 00:11am
Whisper to me
you say you are worried about me
what a coincidence
cause im worred about me too
you whisper in my ear
and my thoughts go
adieu
we all have that one thing
that sends chills
down our snake spines
that one thing,
lifts the hairs on our skin
curls our toes
involuntarily
so thrilling
its scary
and you......... you do that
to me
my head, is thrown back
i ghasp
desperate for fresh air
thrown foward
are my locks
whiping my back ...
what a coincidence
cause im worred about me too
you whisper in my ear
and my thoughts go
adieu
we all have that one thing
that sends chills
down our snake spines
that one thing,
lifts the hairs on our skin
curls our toes
involuntarily
so thrilling
its scary
and you......... you do that
to me
my head, is thrown back
i ghasp
desperate for fresh air
thrown foward
are my locks
whiping my back ...
830 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Apr 2015 10:25pm
23rd Apr 2015 10:25pm
Given up
There comes a time
when you finally let go
lie in the bed they made you
not doing anything
or complying
you just want to follow
the involuntary flow
What is the use is in this?
what is the use in me?
in it and in us?
stop moving your lips
Shut Up
inside and outside
stop trying to fight
its not worth your beautiful screams
it is life
it is neverending
let it go
soak it in
all the words
and defence
nobody is listening
nobody cares
why should you?
when you've been beaten down
for...
when you finally let go
lie in the bed they made you
not doing anything
or complying
you just want to follow
the involuntary flow
What is the use is in this?
what is the use in me?
in it and in us?
stop moving your lips
Shut Up
inside and outside
stop trying to fight
its not worth your beautiful screams
it is life
it is neverending
let it go
soak it in
all the words
and defence
nobody is listening
nobody cares
why should you?
when you've been beaten down
for...
761 reads
4 Comments
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