Submissions by Benji (Leah Johnson)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm decent?
SELF POEM
Published
12th Aug 2014 3:05am
12th Aug 2014 3:05am
D.
Demonic Depression
Ripping and tearing
The inside of my skull
Gorging itself on my happiness
Never shall it be full
Feasting on my insides
Shredding me from within
This demonic depression
Needs to fucking end
It kills all relationships
And brings memories back to life
The only way to exercise it
Is with the blade of a knife
He has no name
No need to speak
Just beware me at the moon's rising
For his power shall peak
Ripping and tearing
The inside of my skull
Gorging itself on my happiness
Never shall it be full
Feasting on my insides
Shredding me from within
This demonic depression
Needs to fucking end
It kills all relationships
And brings memories back to life
The only way to exercise it
Is with the blade of a knife
He has no name
No need to speak
Just beware me at the moon's rising
For his power shall peak
733 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Aug 2014 3:01am
12th Aug 2014 3:01am
C.
C/U/T/S
That run across my wrists
And the insides of my thighs
On my legs and arms
Born from bloodied cries
They spell words of failure
Fat and lies
These scars don't make me beautiful
They're my saintly prize
I tried to martyr myself
My life for yours
But as usual, I fell for the wrong
These cuts don't spell out love,
They were spoken by whores.
That run across my wrists
And the insides of my thighs
On my legs and arms
Born from bloodied cries
They spell words of failure
Fat and lies
These scars don't make me beautiful
They're my saintly prize
I tried to martyr myself
My life for yours
But as usual, I fell for the wrong
These cuts don't spell out love,
They were spoken by whores.
620 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
11th Aug 2014 4:02pm
11th Aug 2014 4:02pm
B.
B..r..o..k..e..n..
Like my shattered heart
Or the boy who lives in it
Like the mirror in the bathroom
Where I see how empty my soul is
Like my reflection
Or should I said it's refraction
Of the person I am
Like my mind and body
From years of abuse
Months of misuse
Like the world that we live in
Broken into segments and races
Like the society that I hate.
Made up, of all your faces.
Like my shattered heart
Or the boy who lives in it
Like the mirror in the bathroom
Where I see how empty my soul is
Like my reflection
Or should I said it's refraction
Of the person I am
Like my mind and body
From years of abuse
Months of misuse
Like the world that we live in
Broken into segments and races
Like the society that I hate.
Made up, of all your faces.
702 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Aug 2014 3:56pm
11th Aug 2014 3:56pm
A.
ANXIETY.
Crippling and weak
Biting nails down to the nub
Blood welling up to meet the gnashing teeth
The pain that distracts
The voices in the wind
That detracts,
From live and love
And fear of death
He whispers naughty things
Like a lover seducing her slave
Picking prying nudging
With his words
Breaking me down
Until I'm just a pile
Of bones and thoughts
Horny with the thought
Of being free
Aroused by the thought of blood
This my friends, is Anxiety.
Crippling and weak
Biting nails down to the nub
Blood welling up to meet the gnashing teeth
The pain that distracts
The voices in the wind
That detracts,
From live and love
And fear of death
He whispers naughty things
Like a lover seducing her slave
Picking prying nudging
With his words
Breaking me down
Until I'm just a pile
Of bones and thoughts
Horny with the thought
Of being free
Aroused by the thought of blood
This my friends, is Anxiety.
700 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Aug 2014 3:46am
11th Aug 2014 3:46am
Do you see me
Do you see me the way that I do
Bloodshot eyes and bruised heart
So many fucking problems
I don't know where to start
The scars on my body have started to fade
But the memories burn thrice as bright
As the nights in which they were made
Do you see the broken boy
Hiding in this young man's body
Do you see all the hatred,
My eyes a dull blue
Do you see me in myself,
Or are we looking at you?
Bloodshot eyes and bruised heart
So many fucking problems
I don't know where to start
The scars on my body have started to fade
But the memories burn thrice as bright
As the nights in which they were made
Do you see the broken boy
Hiding in this young man's body
Do you see all the hatred,
My eyes a dull blue
Do you see me in myself,
Or are we looking at you?
539 reads
1 Comment
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
11th Aug 2014 1:19am
11th Aug 2014 1:19am
rant.
Why the fuck don't you understand "leave me alone". You psycho stalking motherfucker. You threatened to skin my cat and nail it to my mailbox, you carry my child and kill it without even bothering to tell me, you fucking use that against me as you fuck three other people. You say you miss me and that only I can feel the hole in your heart, yet only feel that way when I fill another three of your holes. You fucking whore slut. Leave. Me. The. Fuck. Alone.
568 reads
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DRUGS POEM
Published
10th Aug 2014 4:12pm
10th Aug 2014 4:12pm
Addicted
Pills
Small big red yellow white
Take me away from this god forsaken world
Even if it's just for tonight
I don't wanna move or even feel
Why can't the voices in my head quit
And the world stand still?
Rushing colors and slowed down time
Is this what my life has come to?
Some pill popping fetish
Trying to escape the lies of today
Like I'm fleeing the scene of a crime
It's not fair how you treat me
Or talk to my heart
I use my pills to escape
But,if I'm at the finish,
Where did I start?
Small big red yellow white
Take me away from this god forsaken world
Even if it's just for tonight
I don't wanna move or even feel
Why can't the voices in my head quit
And the world stand still?
Rushing colors and slowed down time
Is this what my life has come to?
Some pill popping fetish
Trying to escape the lies of today
Like I'm fleeing the scene of a crime
It's not fair how you treat me
Or talk to my heart
I use my pills to escape
But,if I'm at the finish,
Where did I start?
680 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
10th Aug 2014 3:14am
10th Aug 2014 3:14am
Family.
You disown me when I moved out
To live my own life
I got a tattoo and pierced my ears
To be the person I've wanted to be
Weeks without contact and you drop by
Unexpected and announced
Bringing money and false hope
That you'll win me back.
College is calling
My life awaits
So fuck all the fighting
And your religious debates.
To live my own life
I got a tattoo and pierced my ears
To be the person I've wanted to be
Weeks without contact and you drop by
Unexpected and announced
Bringing money and false hope
That you'll win me back.
College is calling
My life awaits
So fuck all the fighting
And your religious debates.
534 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2014 10:30pm
23rd Jun 2014 10:30pm
Anxiously waiting
Body spasming
Hands shaky
Tongue dry
Mind racing
This is the moment you die
Sitting in your room
Alone
Noises outside the house
Why do we even try
Gripping a blade
Thoughts slowing
Breathing grows fuller
As your body learns to relax
And the anxiety passes
As your blood runs dry
Hands shaky
Tongue dry
Mind racing
This is the moment you die
Sitting in your room
Alone
Noises outside the house
Why do we even try
Gripping a blade
Thoughts slowing
Breathing grows fuller
As your body learns to relax
And the anxiety passes
As your blood runs dry
609 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
7th May 2014 3:11am
7th May 2014 3:11am
Bitch face
Your words nauseate me
Your face makes me sick
It's like everything you do
Makes my mind want to tick
Like a time bomb tocking
Waiting to explode
To spit the hatred like venom
I need to let lose this load
Of anger and pain
This bitch is crazy
But this one is insane
You're stuck in my head
You've infected my brain
You live so far
But you're oh so close
Guess what bitch face
You'll always only be my ghost
Your face makes me sick
It's like everything you do
Makes my mind want to tick
Like a time bomb tocking
Waiting to explode
To spit the hatred like venom
I need to let lose this load
Of anger and pain
This bitch is crazy
But this one is insane
You're stuck in my head
You've infected my brain
You live so far
But you're oh so close
Guess what bitch face
You'll always only be my ghost
722 reads
1 Comment
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