Submissions by Anxiety
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just let my feelings spill out when I write, I’m not sure what i write anymore, please feel free to give me your honest opinions. I also reply to messages if anyone needs anything at all💕
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th Dec 2017 11:29pm
16th Dec 2017 11:29pm
take advantage of me while you still can.
no restraints
no tears
no love
no hate
in a world I wish
this work is from hell itself
if hell froze over that would be my que
to leave
my world is dark
full of cats and dogs that hiss and bite
rats with red eyes
people with black hearts
in a mist of love
people over see this
most who do advert their eyes
wishing it gone
I want to embrace it
I want to be one with it
But to do that would mean to let my demons out
to play
a horrendous idea
my mind wants a toy
my...
no tears
no love
no hate
in a world I wish
this work is from hell itself
if hell froze over that would be my que
to leave
my world is dark
full of cats and dogs that hiss and bite
rats with red eyes
people with black hearts
in a mist of love
people over see this
most who do advert their eyes
wishing it gone
I want to embrace it
I want to be one with it
But to do that would mean to let my demons out
to play
a horrendous idea
my mind wants a toy
my...
#anxiety
#dark
#shadows #hurt
#shadows #hurt
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Dec 2017 11:16pm
16th Dec 2017 11:16pm
feel it. see it. feel it
I don't think anyone really knows how much I hate me
see when you look in the mirror
And your reflection adverts its eyes from you
that's when you know its bad
or its bad again
its always bad
don't eat that
don't drink that
you're adding countless calories to your body for no reason
don't even look at that cake
or those cup cakes
that cookie is going to make you bloat and float
fill up like a balloon
if you eat that cookie you can say goodbye to dinner and lunch
if you need another reason not to eat
go look in...
see when you look in the mirror
And your reflection adverts its eyes from you
that's when you know its bad
or its bad again
its always bad
don't eat that
don't drink that
you're adding countless calories to your body for no reason
don't even look at that cake
or those cup cakes
that cookie is going to make you bloat and float
fill up like a balloon
if you eat that cookie you can say goodbye to dinner and lunch
if you need another reason not to eat
go look in...
#sadness
#depression
#food
#apathy
#hurt
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Dec 2017 3:30pm
8th Dec 2017 3:30pm
I would kill myself.
I would kill myself, if I could stop myself from stopping myself.
I wonder what death is like
what the feeling is in that exact moment
not that I want to die right right now but on most days that feeling is all there is.
if I asked you if you died right now could you tell me youd be scared or at peace?
see sometimes I think id beyond at peace leaving this raunchy world to spend some time with the devil
on other days I feel if i died now I have so many regrets, too many "I'm sorry's" that I didn't get to say, too many people to tell I...
I wonder what death is like
what the feeling is in that exact moment
not that I want to die right right now but on most days that feeling is all there is.
if I asked you if you died right now could you tell me youd be scared or at peace?
see sometimes I think id beyond at peace leaving this raunchy world to spend some time with the devil
on other days I feel if i died now I have so many regrets, too many "I'm sorry's" that I didn't get to say, too many people to tell I...
#PopCulture
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2017 00:22am
2nd Dec 2017 00:22am
storm inside me
this ache in my heart
my stomach
And my soul
feels as if its consuming me
my lungs hurt from screaming and smoking
there's nothing to replace this with
I've looked everywhere for a cure
there's nothing left to help this feeling
I am forced to let it reek havoc
from the outside everything looks okay
but when I look through the window there's a storm in there
its tore everything apart, even though there 's nothing left to break its still here
its still searching
it continues to make me ache
makes me scream so...
my stomach
And my soul
feels as if its consuming me
my lungs hurt from screaming and smoking
there's nothing to replace this with
I've looked everywhere for a cure
there's nothing left to help this feeling
I am forced to let it reek havoc
from the outside everything looks okay
but when I look through the window there's a storm in there
its tore everything apart, even though there 's nothing left to break its still here
its still searching
it continues to make me ache
makes me scream so...
#anger
#rejection
#dark
#despair
#suffering
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2017 00:12am
2nd Dec 2017 00:12am
it just is
you're probably hanging out with your friends, that can't know about me
because they'd probably stop talking to you.
And I wish I could feel bad for myself
But the truth is I did this.
all I should feel is bad
pain
and anger towards myself
its all I feel, sprinkle some anxiety on that and you've got me pinned
I need something to make this go away but you think I deserve to be in this state all the time
im looking for something to make my demons run
But they like it when I'm self destructive
they like it...
because they'd probably stop talking to you.
And I wish I could feel bad for myself
But the truth is I did this.
all I should feel is bad
pain
and anger towards myself
its all I feel, sprinkle some anxiety on that and you've got me pinned
I need something to make this go away but you think I deserve to be in this state all the time
im looking for something to make my demons run
But they like it when I'm self destructive
they like it...
#PopCulture
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Nov 2017 7:46pm
15th Nov 2017 7:46pm
bobtail plants
Sitting in my grams truck reminds me of being a little girl
memories swarm from the back of my mind
me and Dakota sitting on the tail gate while she drove up to her house
playing princess and pretending this was my castle
we just used my castle to drop you off.
my castle is a moving vechile that will one day die, the same as you will grandmother.
though I love you with all of my heart nothing will stop that from happening
I can't stop staring out the window, I don't want to look at you
you have taught me so much, and yet I am unable to explain why I'm...
memories swarm from the back of my mind
me and Dakota sitting on the tail gate while she drove up to her house
playing princess and pretending this was my castle
we just used my castle to drop you off.
my castle is a moving vechile that will one day die, the same as you will grandmother.
though I love you with all of my heart nothing will stop that from happening
I can't stop staring out the window, I don't want to look at you
you have taught me so much, and yet I am unable to explain why I'm...
#sadness
#anxiety
#confusion #despair
#confusion #despair
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Nov 2017 7:37pm
15th Nov 2017 7:37pm
lifeline, mine
how am I going to let you leave
when I have become so attached to you
although you're leaving will all be on me
I have become so attached to you
at times I feel I cling to your love for dear life
your presence lingers on me when I leave
it sticks to my clothes, keeps me warm like a jacket
your soul has rubbed off on me, I have become so much like you in ways I never thought possible
you have removed things that in my mind were set in stone
you have made me into someone new
you gave me life when I was quitting
you had me see in...
when I have become so attached to you
although you're leaving will all be on me
I have become so attached to you
at times I feel I cling to your love for dear life
your presence lingers on me when I leave
it sticks to my clothes, keeps me warm like a jacket
your soul has rubbed off on me, I have become so much like you in ways I never thought possible
you have removed things that in my mind were set in stone
you have made me into someone new
you gave me life when I was quitting
you had me see in...
#science
#universe
#confessional
#astronomy
#scifi
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Nov 2017 1:06am
14th Nov 2017 1:06am
don't let it in
the way I sleep in my bed is like a metaphor for my depression
my depression is normally on edge
on the brink of either
dissipating or killing myself
i can't think of a time when there
was an in between with it,
when I was younger I used to call
a bottle of vodka a cure for my depression
she nodded her head excitedly,
ready for me to dig deep with
that bottle of vodka
which was always there,
there was always vodka.
my depression talks a lot,
too much if anyone asked. ...
my depression is normally on edge
on the brink of either
dissipating or killing myself
i can't think of a time when there
was an in between with it,
when I was younger I used to call
a bottle of vodka a cure for my depression
she nodded her head excitedly,
ready for me to dig deep with
that bottle of vodka
which was always there,
there was always vodka.
my depression talks a lot,
too much if anyone asked. ...
#depression
#dark
#drugs
#addiction
#MentalHealth
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LOVE POEM
Published
13th Nov 2017 3:25pm
13th Nov 2017 3:25pm
pain in my heart.
i'm sorry that I broke your heart, you'll be glad to know i broke mine too
The strings on my heart also tore
this mass piece of muscle controlling my body collapsed
I gasped for breathe
wouldn't give me air or circulate my blood, help me
my heart broke when yours did.
my heart still breaks every time I look at you,
not because you make me sad
you remind me why I wake up
well actually mewtwo does that, sometimes it sounds like she's singing your name in the morning
I swear she talks about you
she always perks up when I kiss her...
The strings on my heart also tore
this mass piece of muscle controlling my body collapsed
I gasped for breathe
wouldn't give me air or circulate my blood, help me
my heart broke when yours did.
my heart still breaks every time I look at you,
not because you make me sad
you remind me why I wake up
well actually mewtwo does that, sometimes it sounds like she's singing your name in the morning
I swear she talks about you
she always perks up when I kiss her...
#love
#heartbroken
#IMissYou
#emotional
#hurt
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Nov 2017 10:55pm
12th Nov 2017 10:55pm
I can't count the stars so I can't tell you how much I love you.
do you remember the first night we had sex?
we were so drunk but I remember everything about it
we were at your friends house, and they left to get beer but this parts a little fuzzy because I don't remember how it started but I remember your skin against mine and the soft bed that wasn't so soft, and I remember you kissing me and my neck, and then bam! they came home. told us to stop fucking and find somewhere else because we couldn't continue there and I was so embarrassed but you looked like it didn't even bother you, so we got half dressed and you ran down the stairs falling...
we were so drunk but I remember everything about it
we were at your friends house, and they left to get beer but this parts a little fuzzy because I don't remember how it started but I remember your skin against mine and the soft bed that wasn't so soft, and I remember you kissing me and my neck, and then bam! they came home. told us to stop fucking and find somewhere else because we couldn't continue there and I was so embarrassed but you looked like it didn't even bother you, so we got half dressed and you ran down the stairs falling...
#FirstLove
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DRUGS POEM
Published
9th Nov 2017 6:00pm
9th Nov 2017 6:00pm
I need a new method
she who does not know me, will judge me.
not just for the way I look but for my movements and brain functions.
there's something wrong with me
she says I will hurt you again
"The hell does she know" I think and then quickly retract that statement like a scared turtle
I know I won't hurt you again, no one else will see that, the reason for that falls at my feet
the reason you told whoever that it was just because you wanted some pussy
thats why you saw me
because I'm pussy
nothing will be said about it though
And if brought up, I...
not just for the way I look but for my movements and brain functions.
there's something wrong with me
she says I will hurt you again
"The hell does she know" I think and then quickly retract that statement like a scared turtle
I know I won't hurt you again, no one else will see that, the reason for that falls at my feet
the reason you told whoever that it was just because you wanted some pussy
thats why you saw me
because I'm pussy
nothing will be said about it though
And if brought up, I...
#universe
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Oct 2017 4:14pm
12th Oct 2017 4:14pm
Two year puzzle
I wish you were in my bed, I wish it was our bed.
I feel the need to put my fingers between yours, to push our palms together and feel the skin of your hand with my thumb, to never let go. Glue our fingers together like you do when you're done putting a puzzle together, I want to put us together like a puzzle. To take my time building us, finding the pieces that fit perfectly, it'll take a long time there are so many pieces, so many pieces that don't have the right piece to go with yet, I want to be patient with us and take hours just looking at you, figuring everything out. I wish you...
I feel the need to put my fingers between yours, to push our palms together and feel the skin of your hand with my thumb, to never let go. Glue our fingers together like you do when you're done putting a puzzle together, I want to put us together like a puzzle. To take my time building us, finding the pieces that fit perfectly, it'll take a long time there are so many pieces, so many pieces that don't have the right piece to go with yet, I want to be patient with us and take hours just looking at you, figuring everything out. I wish you...
#love
#lust
#ILoveYou
#crush
#passion
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