Submissions by Alynnb1983 (April)

Up all night,waiting on the sun,so much stuff needs to be done. No one knows all the darkness that I hold and the many many secrets that I hold.

Never thought in a million years that I would have caused people so many tears. Over and over I let family down yet this addiction of meth keeps knocking me straight to the ground. I'll think it's the end then I'll take it to another round.

I only can look in the mirror and blame the reflection, as I look at myself all I think of is pure imperfection. I begged to get high,to float to the sky not willing to see the demise in my...

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"One pill, two pill, three pill. Four. Empty bottle on the floor.
Red light, blue light, red flash blue
My wife is now losing it, this isnt cool.
 Cops, Ambulance now ICU
Cant even breath on my own..."cant you see what meths doing to you?"
 Nurse, doctors psychiatrist to
Wife begging them, asking them " what can i do?"
 Every high has a low, this happens every SINGLE time hell I should know.
  I dont want to die i hate suicide bc all it does is make familys cry
 1 attempt, 2 attempt, 3 attempt 4 the fifth was it im not shooting...

Just a little something I wrote.
"Done with you"

"She warned me you will destroy me. She told me everything you will do. Id lose it all she said but still I begged and begged. I told her I can handle it...just hit me once I got this I said. I continued to say that if you truly love me do it, dont make me beg. She never wanted this for me...why couldnt I just see.
As the point pierced through me for the first time, I fell onto the bed ..the feeling, the rush the silent crush, waves crashing, ears burning boom instantly in love. Ill never forget that moment in time...the...