Submissions by AfterSexDilemma
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
If I were me, I'd shutup...
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Sep 2014 3:25am
13th Sep 2014 3:25am
I Am__________?
I want that feeling
everytime I smile....
someone makes me laugh...
wheres that good feeling?
I have none left.
..and I can feel this harshness rising in my chest.
because my heart keeps beating harder,
but it's still difficult to take breaths.
And I don't know how much longer until my next...
I'm slowing faster
This world around me has withered and dulled
I'm out of focus
Just blurred colors and warped faces
These caring eyes have grown dark and shapeless
and mirror back all the lies and fakeness
Wheres that...
everytime I smile....
someone makes me laugh...
wheres that good feeling?
I have none left.
..and I can feel this harshness rising in my chest.
because my heart keeps beating harder,
but it's still difficult to take breaths.
And I don't know how much longer until my next...
I'm slowing faster
This world around me has withered and dulled
I'm out of focus
Just blurred colors and warped faces
These caring eyes have grown dark and shapeless
and mirror back all the lies and fakeness
Wheres that...
651 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2014 3:10pm
3rd Sep 2014 3:10pm
2-faces
You have 2 faces that I like to see
one in the front,
and one you only show me.
And I love you no matter what you try to be,
The perfect man on the front
but your so mean to me.
And I have 2 faces that you see.
The one you lie to,
and the one you want me to be.
And you'll never love me for me.
As long as you keep pretending,
there won't be a reality.
So I only love you for you,
No matter how many faces you choose
Your the last thing I want to lose
But I can't be who you want me to be,
and I can't make you think she...
one in the front,
and one you only show me.
And I love you no matter what you try to be,
The perfect man on the front
but your so mean to me.
And I have 2 faces that you see.
The one you lie to,
and the one you want me to be.
And you'll never love me for me.
As long as you keep pretending,
there won't be a reality.
So I only love you for you,
No matter how many faces you choose
Your the last thing I want to lose
But I can't be who you want me to be,
and I can't make you think she...
647 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Aug 2014 11:09pm
9th Aug 2014 11:09pm
Listen...
I love you and you won't listen
it's hard to get you to pay attention
I want only eyes on me
but your hands take over my body
and touch me everytime I try for you
and hold me, only when i'm not crying for you
and fuck me, but I dont want you to
I just want you to listen
and pay attention
I love you even after you hate me
I try to kiss you and you rape me
I only want your mind on me
but your hands take over my body
and beat me everytime I cry for you
and cut me everytime I run from you
and fuck me, only when I dont want you...
it's hard to get you to pay attention
I want only eyes on me
but your hands take over my body
and touch me everytime I try for you
and hold me, only when i'm not crying for you
and fuck me, but I dont want you to
I just want you to listen
and pay attention
I love you even after you hate me
I try to kiss you and you rape me
I only want your mind on me
but your hands take over my body
and beat me everytime I cry for you
and cut me everytime I run from you
and fuck me, only when I dont want you...
661 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2014 00:03am
22nd Jul 2014 00:03am
Beautiful
Beautiful is hard to achieve
because it comes and goes, like a disease
and it sickens me
because i cant keep it with me
if you keep taking it away
But I know there was a day
I thought you were for me
But trying to make you stay
is impossible to achieve
and you sicken me
just like a fucking disease
because it comes and goes, like a disease
and it sickens me
because i cant keep it with me
if you keep taking it away
But I know there was a day
I thought you were for me
But trying to make you stay
is impossible to achieve
and you sicken me
just like a fucking disease
671 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2014 8:51pm
14th Jul 2014 8:51pm
My Stalker...
Such a good day
Loved you since I was 13
Finally mature enough to talk about our feelings
Because I felt that they weren't true
That I was just crushing on you
But everything you do
Makes me keep loving you
I never thought i'd like you forever
And each time we talk it gets better
And I know we cant be together
And I love you like I was 13
And I remember that first day you said something to me
And I can't stop thinking were meant to be
I can't believe someone like you remembered me
Love how you stalked me, just to talk to...
Loved you since I was 13
Finally mature enough to talk about our feelings
Because I felt that they weren't true
That I was just crushing on you
But everything you do
Makes me keep loving you
I never thought i'd like you forever
And each time we talk it gets better
And I know we cant be together
And I love you like I was 13
And I remember that first day you said something to me
And I can't stop thinking were meant to be
I can't believe someone like you remembered me
Love how you stalked me, just to talk to...
625 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2014 4:11am
14th Jul 2014 4:11am
Waiting
I am a constant figure in my life
and people keep passing me by
and I sit still watching the close ones transform
from battering eyelashes to demon eyes
and I fill up my mind with the hope of some kind
that these good people wont harden like ice
and shape shift into those ferocious creatures that summon me in the night
And I am the constant sitter; inanimate and out of sight
I look for those that suffer
Those I know wont win the fight
And I learn the ways between my days and nights
Because I don't want to run into someone I don't...
and people keep passing me by
and I sit still watching the close ones transform
from battering eyelashes to demon eyes
and I fill up my mind with the hope of some kind
that these good people wont harden like ice
and shape shift into those ferocious creatures that summon me in the night
And I am the constant sitter; inanimate and out of sight
I look for those that suffer
Those I know wont win the fight
And I learn the ways between my days and nights
Because I don't want to run into someone I don't...
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2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jul 2014 10:27pm
13th Jul 2014 10:27pm
Selfish
This is a goodbye
No love to offer
No shoulder where I cry
And this is how I intend to let this die
Because I can't convince you to say goodbye
I can only beg you for another lie
I'll get no reply
Can't wait for a better life
Nothing I wouldn't do to get me through the night
Let go of the pain and look up to the light
Because there's always something beautiful In my sight
Snatch it and run because one day it might not reply
And you'll keep on searching for the next guy
And hope he spurs from the darkness your keeping inside
So...
No love to offer
No shoulder where I cry
And this is how I intend to let this die
Because I can't convince you to say goodbye
I can only beg you for another lie
I'll get no reply
Can't wait for a better life
Nothing I wouldn't do to get me through the night
Let go of the pain and look up to the light
Because there's always something beautiful In my sight
Snatch it and run because one day it might not reply
And you'll keep on searching for the next guy
And hope he spurs from the darkness your keeping inside
So...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jul 2014 2:10am
13th Jul 2014 2:10am
Memory
I need to know this feeling
after the liars take the last thing you had
that was appealing
these dangers are lurking
and softly killing
but i cant feel it until im almost dead
and all this love and lust
means the same thing in my head
and i cant imagine a world when i stop trying
and convince myself to stop crying
all these demons swirling in my head
only vermin suck at the nipple, and drink a bloody red
theres no life i wouldnt give for
another day of living dead
i dont want to forget this feeling
i dont want to stop at...
after the liars take the last thing you had
that was appealing
these dangers are lurking
and softly killing
but i cant feel it until im almost dead
and all this love and lust
means the same thing in my head
and i cant imagine a world when i stop trying
and convince myself to stop crying
all these demons swirling in my head
only vermin suck at the nipple, and drink a bloody red
theres no life i wouldnt give for
another day of living dead
i dont want to forget this feeling
i dont want to stop at...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
18th Jun 2014 9:26pm
18th Jun 2014 9:26pm
gone
gone, so long
ive missed you and your barely gone
go on, come back and kiss me
so i wont feel so alone.
take me home.
i want to feel the warmth of your breath and clothes
sweet aroma of your skin creep in my nostrils
and choke me every time i cry for you
long to take you in my arms and die for you.
anything to kiss you. stop me from missing you.
i wanna fix you, don't tell me your not good for me
stop trying to help, this is all that's hurting,
cant you see?
dont go so fast without a lasting impression to keep me happy.
dont stop taking...
ive missed you and your barely gone
go on, come back and kiss me
so i wont feel so alone.
take me home.
i want to feel the warmth of your breath and clothes
sweet aroma of your skin creep in my nostrils
and choke me every time i cry for you
long to take you in my arms and die for you.
anything to kiss you. stop me from missing you.
i wanna fix you, don't tell me your not good for me
stop trying to help, this is all that's hurting,
cant you see?
dont go so fast without a lasting impression to keep me happy.
dont stop taking...
832 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
18th Jun 2014 8:41pm
18th Jun 2014 8:41pm
hate
hate this day
cant believe i waited so long
just to take this pain
i wanted it and i got it
its such a stupid game
broke down for all of this
but it stays the same
ill beg and cry
just dont forget my name
you gripped this heart
bursting every vein
theres no more fire in this core
im so beaten and tame
i want to whisper your name
under every breath
and seek vengeance on this misery
and hope for a better death
because you keep collapsing me in
until theres nothing left
cant believe i waited so long
just to take this pain
i wanted it and i got it
its such a stupid game
broke down for all of this
but it stays the same
ill beg and cry
just dont forget my name
you gripped this heart
bursting every vein
theres no more fire in this core
im so beaten and tame
i want to whisper your name
under every breath
and seek vengeance on this misery
and hope for a better death
because you keep collapsing me in
until theres nothing left
602 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th Jun 2014 11:35pm
7th Jun 2014 11:35pm
Sad Day :(
No more dreams come true for you.
No matter if you want them to.
Just keep those tears for another day.
You'll realize in time
there was nothing good for you anyway.
Don't hurt yourself trying to save these things.
Loneliness was meant for unfortunate beings.
Just hold your head high and die someday.
Cuz this world doesn't want you
and will kick you out;
he won't let you stay.
He was a fucked up world anyway.
How I loved all the things he'd say.
Made me think I was beautiful is every way.
But the truth lies in this mirrors...
No matter if you want them to.
Just keep those tears for another day.
You'll realize in time
there was nothing good for you anyway.
Don't hurt yourself trying to save these things.
Loneliness was meant for unfortunate beings.
Just hold your head high and die someday.
Cuz this world doesn't want you
and will kick you out;
he won't let you stay.
He was a fucked up world anyway.
How I loved all the things he'd say.
Made me think I was beautiful is every way.
But the truth lies in this mirrors...
816 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2013 7:02am
23rd Dec 2013 7:02am
Jealousy
Life is too boring for me to want to be awake
and I'll sleep my life away happily
in hope of some familiar happening
how i wish my dreams were never-ending
A strange resort for all my feelings
a darkness that is ghastly appealing
a storm cloud collapsing in on me
the pressure from my envying
A sleepy sickness and no retreat
My phony way to relieve
no stress; no anger, from what I think
When eyes will scurry, but never blink
these protrusions spurring from the dark
vanish at the light of day
so abruptly introduced at the...
and I'll sleep my life away happily
in hope of some familiar happening
how i wish my dreams were never-ending
A strange resort for all my feelings
a darkness that is ghastly appealing
a storm cloud collapsing in on me
the pressure from my envying
A sleepy sickness and no retreat
My phony way to relieve
no stress; no anger, from what I think
When eyes will scurry, but never blink
these protrusions spurring from the dark
vanish at the light of day
so abruptly introduced at the...
820 reads
3 Comments
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