Let's see. I'm almost 41, have 4 kids with special needs, and live in an ultra Orthodox community where I have to write under a pen name so no one might say anything negative to my husband or kids. I went to a rabbi for a blessing - to be a poet. When he asked me if I really REALLY wanted this, I told him I did. He gave me the blessing.
Now you tell me how badly I want to be a poet.
Only you can answer that one.