Today I would like to write a little about a specific card in the Fairies Orcaclr deck that has been very important to me.
This card showed me many great new insights, I have spent some time getting to know this Fey better. Today after I drew some cards for a possible reading here, he popped up from the deck twice after with his face upwards. I felt like he was playing his fey tricks on me saying peek a Booh, here I am again. So i made a deal with him that I would tell you about his story.
His story is a very long one, he was actually told to get one of the hardest tasks in the whole deck. this is because many see him as a monster which he surely is not. Many card readers fear this card and see it as frightening or even ugly.
I didn't find him ugly, I took a good look at him and quickly saw he reminds me very much of myself.
In that matter being, he is so very much himself, he doesn't needany makeup or jewelry. Even if he would wear that he'd still be very different from all of the rest of the deck. He told me to stay focussed on my own center point and look at the stagnant motion, look at the stream standing still, dive into the milky blue of greyish clouds when it rains, and remembers how good it smells after the rain, how the earth becomes alive.
His name is Soulshrinker though he has not come to me to shrink my soul or to deny me, he told me to look closely at the tiny pieces and frame them. He told me to make art of it, to know that what has shrunken will gain its shape again. I began to see him as an unspoiled meaning pure-hearted child, be it a bit rebellious at times or just plain simply himself without any posture.
I began to read about Soul shrinker again, how the other fey had made a vow that he was left behind until all other was or would be enlightened, you don't have to adapt to the dark, just know that it is the reverse side of the light, remember that seedlings that are already planted will grow again, an old leaf will fall off but the tree will not die.
He tells me to soulfully mind my step, to ground, to reach out, to know that truth is sometimes ugly though it won't break you. He challenged me to step forward. He could have entered Nirvana but his task was to save souls making them into lovely floating lanterns send out to shine a light
I embraced him and he giggled, Don't be foolish, he says, anything seemingly monstrous is not larger.
Once I was beautiful just like all the other fey, though my heart is compassionate and wise. Look into your heart and my eyes. All humans have many lessons, the whole of humanity has but use the brighter then we both get to become a bit more beautiful.
I have decided to put him on my desk board, give him a visible place where he can shine in his original beauty