.... lost my Daisy-girl yesterday
I posted a shitty poem about it yesterday too, but hated it and took it down.
I was in a state, to put it mildly.
She was a big golden girl of love & pure bright sunshine. No matter how bad your day may have been going, she could immediately turn it around with one doggo look or her immense love of anything tennis ball... lol. She was so very smart, loving, emotional and so much fun. I had been lucky enough to visit her almost every day since 2013 and often more that once a day at that. We had a great bond and she knew my name as well as her own. When asked, "Is Susan here?" she would run to the front window and see if I was walking up the driveway, which is how I would usually find her every day waiting for me... Always in the window. I would open the door with my
"Where's my Daisy-girl??! "...
Inevitably being met at he door with tennis ball in mouth... hahaha
-Until the last few months, which had her missing more days at the window. Her hearing had really started to go and her age, effecting her more and more.
I found her yesterday, on her dog bed... I thought asleep.
I have seen many animals pass away and I have been there with their owners if they themselves have chosen to end suffering. I know this process. I know it well.
However, this hit me hard as fuck.
I was destroyed... I am destroyed still.
I called her owner's at work
(talk about a shitty as fuck call), told them as much as I could choke out and sat, petting my Daisy-girl... crying my eyes out, until they got there.
I almost had to uber home.
She was part of my day for so long, I feel lost today. Lost, with a piece of my heart missing
that was reserved only for my sweetest Daisy-girl and her sunshine.
Lost with a cloudy heart
I'm sending her my love out into the universe, hopefully meeting her at whatever window she might be waiting at......
—"There's my Daisy-girl."
Blue my sweet Blue I am unable to comment right now
Lift you up with love and light