it's 5:55 pm, .. there's less blood in this catheter bag today, .. if I knew what I know now I woulda choose a different path then this painful one from hell, .. perhaps my 9 mm woulda been more liberating, .. but I drove down this road, for my daughters sake, can't leave a suicide legacy to them, .. It'd be their undoing, .. don't think I am sad or depressed, .. I am not, .. I have such joy and peace in my heart, .. I knew in advance that becoming human would be sortied, .. maybe someday i will tell you about the spider web of light I have descended from, .. a different realm, .. maybe I'll tell you if I can find the words in these human languages, .. perhaps I'll try
AND “I did not come to bring peace, but a sword” (Matthew 10:34).
JeZeus, .. formerly known as Yeshua