Except for the occasional football game I rarely watch TV, (local, cable, Dish, satellite), Netflicks, Hulu...I'm in mental detox from the programming and programmers.
What has been your most freeing/liberating moment?
The answer to this is a bit long, so please bear with me. Grrr.
I'd been looking for a spiritual click, for the missing jigsaw piece to fit. With each religion I dipped in I found a truth. I'd try to find meaning in this mess, and self acceptance.
I finally found buddhism, it opened up my awareness and helped me understand the questions I had. But even that as an organised religion is fucked up.
I spent 6 years as an ordained buddhist nun and felt a schism within myself for almost the entire ordination. I longed for love, for connection, for intimacy.
I decided to practice lay life again and reconcile that duality I felt inside and once again looked into other religions and philosophies. I came across Satanism (one would be forgiven for chuckling right now), but in the absurdity that is basing a religion around the ultimate spiritual recalcitrant, a voice came to me and said, "Embrace yourself ".
That was my lightbulb moment. I'd spent so long looking for answers outside myself... my self. It wasn't until a Satanist told me it is divine beauty I seek, divine meaning.
Does your life have purpose? If so, would you mind sharing what that is?