Man, that's commitment!
I think I've found a degree of acceptance in my ability. I'm not brilliant, I'm not awful. I'm discovering my strengths and weaknesses. What I need to do to write consistently (some degree of discipline). Most of all I've seen the importance of like-minded people to support you in your path, to have poetic sangha.
Thank you all.
I know I am constantly monitoring my repetitions after reading how amazing your Proverbs has been turning out.
that i am beginning to suspect (and others believe)
i am kind of good with spilling not so much poems but the stuff I've been spilling recently.
I do believe, however, other influences (Sky_dancer and the Friends here who i chat with more than occasionally) have contributed to my confidence and acceptance of praise and critique.
Coming-from-the-heart spills are the best. It's what makes us human and connects with like-minded readers; says, "you're not alone".
This year I have no focus, neither form nor thematic content (as opposed to my last NaPo, in 2017, when I had the focus of writing 30 villanelles). I am finding the complete openness doesn't really help. I think I respond better to some self-chosen guidelines. It looks to me that those who have a theme to work to are gifting us all with a higher level of contributions.
I learned this lesson a decade ago. II greatly admire those who can write without a theme. But for what it's worth - you're doing great, Josh. And it's never too late to change your mind about what you want to do. This is NaPo - and there are NO restrictions on WHAT you write, including form, only THAT you write.
Currents do change course, my friend.
For some reason, everyday I've been visited with inspiration. I find I am subconsciously noticing my surroundings more and pondering on my history. I am also writing, finally, about ideas and themes that have been warming, set to low, on my cerebral back-burner. I am enjoying revisiting some styles I've been exposed to by past competitions, namely the Villanelle and Kennings forms.
I feel the same way honestly. I feel in some ways though, I am writing just to write and it’s lacking in depth of emotion for me.
THAT is completely normal during NaPo,
i've managed to find something to write about every day tho i can't quite say i'm happy with all of it & just can't wait to start to disembowel them all in May & see what's best for manure and what can be kept.
tbh two days ago i was ready to throw in the towel & say fuckit, way too much happening irl buuuuuuuuuuuut I've learned I can write while wanting to garrote someone with their own entrails soooooo yay napo 2019
As meditating in peace at a busy corner vs finding a quiet corner to meditate. Perfect!
only indolent and not sleeping very well
the past 3 days i think i got a total of 5.5 hrs of sleep
Well hopefully you'll get some sleep and give it a go! I know Viddax would appreciate it!
You're all doing wonderful, and we are so impressed with the caliber of entries this year. It does seem to be one of hardships for a couple of our members, but the team is really holding them up and inspiring them to continue.
We are a well-oiled machine! Onward!