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A little story for peeps who like stories, a true one!
When I was 8 I discovered my mother's huge closet stash of Star Trek novels. It made me dream of becoming a novelist myself. The paperbacks I loved the most were the one about Spock's adopted daughter and the one about the talking cat people. How could I forget "All-Loops" .. too much like me, in retrospect.
12 yo I decided to become hard-core SDA. Like, books made me a "mental enibriate" as though I was getting drunk on books instead of staying "sober and watchful" so even though I didn't become an Adventist to "get clean" of novels, it became part of my mental landscape.
It was seventh grade, and my grades were not going to cut it anyway, in a new state, starting part way into the school year. But to make things worse, my English teacher (my lifetime weakness) demanded I read a novel of my choosing. No exemptions for religion.
So I went all activist and made a spontaneous speech on a bench in the lunch room about freedom. I am so weird like that, shy but not for stage. Next thing I know, I'm not finishing a report on a gigantic religious book called "The Great Controversy Between Christ and Satan." I never finished it. Thankfully we moved again. LOL
And then in homeschool, as I was doing 8th grade, I intentionally got a c- for refusing fiction AGAIN... and then I did it again in correspondence High School, ruining what could have been a perfect GPA.
So call it KARMA that I'm still waiting.
God, I get it! I'm done with cults.
Now please..... let me write some sci-fi!