One more thing. I'm sure a few feel like distancing from my frantic energy...
When I came to DU 2 years ago I couldn't shed my anxiety to settle down and learn properly. For some reason I tried anyway. So I became a bit discouraged after a point. Then I stopped writing.
And then... things around me were continuing to escalate my parental anxiety. All I could do was go back to my anxious writing frenzy.
At a tipping point I put out books. I hardly believe I went and did that. I don't know whether to be happy about it or what.
Concerning "Pig in a Web" ..I'm not entirely alone in loving it but next to nobody has even cracked it open. Three people, so far, that I know of, I think?
The allegory and backstory have a value, as does the reason it came out. But it must be reborn!
It is the best my fractured heart and mind felt able to do. I truly feel I should double back and redo it ASAP, with help, if possible. I need to iron out things... like paragraphs that didn't stay in shape as I altered my book formatting. And bigger issues, like did I rush anything? I need feedback to be sure, but I'd change a thing or two probably.
Also, imagine this. Me on my iPad... trying to pretend to the world around me as much as possible that I'm not writing.
The process of me.... writing... has been a hated experience for my loved ones around me.
Probably my fault. People, even friends, wonder how I justify time writing, with ten kids.
So I hide my shame... like I am going off to do something terrible. Sneaking around like I'm having an affair because I don't know how to own my passion like a boss.
And my husband is the better writer, not me.
One more block to writing, in my mind.