drugs i need one feeling...show u been there

Pleased for the opportune time to see how many honest junkies and dope dealers ....and people who seem discombobulated to come out ....we accept tweekers who speak tweek ...we take the crazy insane and we love to make fun of the drug induced brain...dont worry I'm not laughing at u its a thing that all junkies to comeback and check and see what's been written u may like the adventure ....lets go on it together....meshelly

Taste My Rainbow

The pink one is pretty,  
Its for me to forget
That awful vengeful night
The one I will forever regret

The blue one tastes awful
but wow the high is real
To try not to remember
all that was forced to feel

The red is for the demons
that caused the most pain
Those never go away
and then its another pill, again

The yellow is the best, its my most fave
makes me able to not think
Sometimes I take 2 of these
And wash them down with a drink

The purple and green make me mean
and the white makes it alright
to try and wake up the next day, and begin another losing fight....

Written by mysteriouslady

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BROTHER RAT
Inspired by Oxycodone and Kafka's 'Metamorphosis'

Like Lucifer’s fall from grace
I dropped from the human race
Neurotic paranoid schizoaffective with addiction
Into the dark I retreated with my mental affliction
Dilapidating in desperation I prowl and sneak
Nearsightedly on hands and knees I rummage slink and creep
Scavenging the sewers, gutters, dumpsters, clutter and alleys
Of garbage and sewage for digestible grubbery
Filthy frizzled frazzled mangy hair crawling with lice and fleas
My surviving mustard-colored teeth decay with disease
Like tusks over my withered lips only a few remain
My dirty untrimmed fingernails are yellow and frayed
I’m harmless, yet people are startled at my sight
So I prowl in the lonely shadows of the night
My humanity is slowly disintegrating
Tweaking ticking twitching scratching shivering
Body constantly moving in psychomotor agitation
Chemical mortification of the flesh in declination
Some dumpsters are better than others
Some swill and garbage has more to offer
My inflamed olfactory detects odorants of molding
Leading me to a steel cornucopia of bakery leavings
Where I feast on musty maggot-infested sweet breads
With such abandon I’m oblivious to the iron jaws of death
“Hey Jack…Jack!
Come here quick!
Look at the huge rat
I caught in my trap!”

NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR: Diagnosed with cancer can be a humbling experience. The synthetic opiates I took, along with the effects of chemo, were devastating to my psyche. Plagued with insomnia, I’d wander the streets at night. I looked like a wreck. My hair fell out in patches. Due to acute dry mouth, my teeth literally rotted out of my mouth.  People avoided me like the plague. I never felt so alone. For the fist time in my life, I identified with society’s outcasts. One night, I had a horrible nightmare that I was trapped in a dumpster crawling with rats. I awoke drenched in sweat and trembling in fear.

To The Edge

I Drink the first one with ease
It slides down
Cool wet and delicious
Pop the top to another
Take a Tequila shot and Chase it with my beer
Two gulps and it's gone
Things are looking up
Take a couple lines of coke
Motivation is building
The demon begins to awake
Let's get this party started
Two more shots
Another beer and we
Spark up the Chronic
Long smooth drags
Puff, puff, pass
Don't bogart the joint
Ooooo
Mellow sets in and
I'm feeling no pain
Inaudible conversations
Surround  me as I tweak
Don't stop now
It's barely starting to get good
The demon laughs in my head
Another beer and
Some more coke
Why not!
It's a party and
I won't be driving home
Conversations with new faces
Drives to new places
Hitting up the pusher
In the middle of the night
Beer run!
Everyone pitches in
Jack Daniel chugs
Chasing it with beers
More chronic
Let's move the party
To a more secluded place
And let's get wasted
Cars parked every where
The party rages on
Quaaludes make their appearance and
Their gobbled up like candy
More chronic and the
Demons start to waiver
They drag me down into
The back seat
Away from the crowd
Take another one
God won't care
Relieve the pain in your heart
No one cares
Sinking down deep
Into the dark abyss
So low you can't move
From the weight of your body
Hades beckons you
Come,
I have a place for you
Everything will be better
I reach out but
It is all in vain
Darkness,
Darkness,
Curled up sleeping
At deaths gate


(C) 2017 xmar82 All Rights Reserved

cheval ~

there've been ponies
riding his crook
like a carousel again
& that slack arm rests
across my nape
a noose of
bruised veins ...
... he licks the ceiling,
lapping an ocean
of bleeding plumeria
from pale plaster,
wonder if
they rain down
behind hooded lids
or if he's blind
in that place  
between something
& oblivion
*
in purgatory
we sleep on
broken tea cups ~
... i watch him eat
echoes of the past
from china shards
& silver spoons
burned by flame
at his fingertips ...
he soaks the singe
in amber fluid,
pours the scorch
down my throat
[i swallow]
//

Love Hate Relationship

It's been three months now without you
i go days without thinking about you
But some days i find that i'm losing my mind
And i yearn and i miss and i shout you

For decades we roamed clouds together
And didn't mind where how or whether
Hell or heaven sent i still catch your scent
We were bonded by a smoky tether

No i don't miss you at all yes i do
i thought you were love but we're through
Hear you calling my name but if it's all the same
No i want you i need you i hate you

You helped me forget who i was
But you were my downfall because
i just couldn't cope with being this dope
And so now i am taking this pause

i hid your utensils from my wife
In case you return to my life
And i'm full to the hilt of this awful guilt
You've given me nothing but strife

The worst thing though is this grief
And knowing that i can't get relief
There is no desire that replaces your fire
You've damned me is my belief

There's no way that i can employ ya
And if only i could i would destroy ya
No one has to guess why i am such a mess
And you infected me with paranoia

And even though i won't be the same
i'm telling you to fuck off Mary Jane
But still stay close if i should need your dose
No damn it you're not worth the pain

Prescribed


Prescribed by those meant to save you
Turns out they just want to contain you
Make you controlled and compliant
They make sure you lose your will
Lose your ability to reason with them
They drug you then say you’re confused
You can no longer make decisions
They make you drool when you talk
So you just stop talking out loud
In lucid moments you ask for help
Their solution; gives you stronger drugs
I now crave for my hillbilly heroin
Despite out of control hallucinations
When the monsters come out to play
The care staff strap you down
You can’t become argumentative
Whilst feeding your pet unicorn
Or watch a pink spider army marching
Towards your least favourite demon
Goblins rip your body to shreds
You scream that slow mo silent scream
You are mentally and physically immobile
All your dreams are haunted by darkness
Nightmares about previous nightmares
There is no apparent end to the horror
Shaking with fear you rant like a mental case
Highs are as bad as lows, you crave normality
Gabapentin, Morphine and Oxy-Contin cocktail
Imprison the little sanity I have left
My love, my wife, my saviour
With a heavy hand put her foot down
She told them “no more” insanity
Reducing drugs and psychotherapy
Brought me back from the brink
They took both my legs
They took some brain function
But now by force, they leave me alone
I am almost drug free
I am almost sane
I am not cured
I am not happy
But it could be worse
I miss my unicorn

Speeder

The school geek, speed freak
Pressures of an 'A plus' teen,
The jock jerk no homework
No need for those amphetamines.

Study hard, report card
Parents can be very needy,
If you're tardy no party
Think it's time for something speedy.

Getting laid or getting grades?
Gotta focus feeling crabby,
Wars are forming, geo warming
Solve it with a little addy.

Fix my brain, catch the train
Here comes those racing engines,
A Shakespeare play, Hemmingway
Finish homework with a vengeance.

Super bright, up all night
Back to school again tomorrow,
Getting wired, feeling tired
Can't keep giving when you borrow.

A piece of cake, you're wide awake
Your life is blinking like a flash,
Now on your back, a heart attack
That need for speed leads to a crash.

Written by mikemason

Pills, pills
__________

Pills, pills such pretty pills
Eating so many I can't get my fill,
Yellow and green, orange and blue
So many colors, I love what they do.

Pills, pills wonderful pills
Found inside cabinets; on windowsills,
I'm high and I'm low - they're great as pain blockers
Steal them from people and con them from doctors.

Pills, pills these miracle pills
Given to people to cure all their ills,
Dissolve so well down deep in your stomach
Solve all your pain or certainly numb it.

Pills, pills such peppy pills
Popping them purely for all of the thrills,
The party keeps thumping inside of your head
Til you take four downers and then go to bed.

Pills, pills strange little pills
The ache in your heart and the strain on your will,
Their chain of addiction is too hard to break
Withdrawals are cruel and too hard to take.

Pills, pills horrible pills
You never did tell me how you could kill,
You stole many years, my family and friends
I'm taking them back now so this is the end.


Mike Mason

Heroin

Heroin, Violins
You played me like a fiddle.
Dead man's drug, you took my blood
And gave me very little.

You're so evil, pins and needles
Warm sensation creeping in,
Can't refuse you - always use you
Poppy juice is seeping in.

Staying high, days go by
Sleeping in and nodding out,
This is spiritual - such a miracle
Now you're here and God is out.

I feel no pain, you're off the chain
The one I always tried to find,
You moved in here - removed my fears
And helped me tranquilize my mind.

When you were gone the games were on
Withdrawals hit me like a brick,
Nerves were jumping - head was thumping
The cramps and chills, so deathly sick.

I can't believe how you deceive
I worshiped all those things you gave me,
I never thought you'd slip a knot
Around my neck and then enslave me.


Written by mikemason

THE COMEDOWN

Creepy sounds are crawling in
Now its five am again
Baselines that were so lush
Fragment as I lose the rush

Press my chest down
As I gurn and frown
Now it’s time to bounce
This crazy nite renounce

The sounds were so insane
MDMA echo’s in my brain
Coming down off this high
I stumble under cloudy sky

The journey I take alone
Is grey, no bars on the fone
The chems are in decline
Not long till I don’t feel fine

Time to move get out of here
Before a smile becomes a sneer
Lose waves of beauty inside my soul
You know it’s true it’s time to roll

Comedown digs like a shank
Maybe time to talk to frank
Bury my head to the pain
Chemical meltdown in my brain

Waiting here I anticipate
The paranoia and self-hate
This dark place I lay my head
Almost wishing I was dead

Awaiting sleeps gentle caress
Escape the fact that I’m a mess
When Thursday comes feeling sane
On Friday do it all again

Rocks

Copping blocks, chopping rocks
Stacked up on a shiny mirror,
Snow white powder - hearing louder
Talking faster, seeing clearer.

Ringing ears, no more fears
All amped up I'm feeling stronger,
Coming down I get unwound
Wish this shit would last much longer.

One more hit, such good shit
Wonder what it's like to shoot,
I take a shot and blow my top
This high is fly and absolute.

Need to slam another gram
Tolerance is getting higher,
Need a plan to make a gran
Become the seller not the buyer.

Selling rocks to thugs and jocks
For kids I put my shit on sale,
Big time bucks, But outta' luck
The popo threw my ass in jail.

Doing time, dream of lines
And rock piles in a silver spoon,
There's no doubt when I get out
I'll mainline cocaine very soon.

The day is here I'm free and clear
But homeless and I'm destitute,
No cash for coke, I'm flat ass broke
Guess I'll have to prostitute.