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darken_soul
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crimsin
Unveiling
Forum Posts: 2635
Unveiling
Tyrant of Words
121
Joined 25th Jan 2011 Forum Posts: 2635
Methadone
For thirteen years
You held me in your bossom
Me so drugged up
Unaware I was in prison.
Everday I rose early
To drink your bitter juice
I was always in a crunch
To get my methadone and feel that rush.
I was kept isolated and alone
Swimming in your pink loveliness
It was all I needed to feel right at home.
No feelings, no love
No one could get in
No emotions allowed
With methadone this being unforgivable sin.
Awake all night
Asleep all day
Methadone you ruled my life
A king you truly reigned.
Less then one percent
Have ever succeeded to shake this habit
Crimsin you're a lifer
Freedom you can't have it.
A year later methadone free
In the one percentile
I can't belive this is me.
Getting to know who I truly am
Scary but exciting.
Trapped in that pink bubble for so long
I had abandoned my loved ones for a drug.
So I tread slowly on my shakey feet
This world for the first time facing head on
Without my methadone goggles on.
I won't say this trip has been easy
Sleepless nights, anxiety filled days
I wonder if my stomach will ever be straight.
Most days now I feel sane and secure
Still in my dreams
Methadone you do enter
To see if i'm home and lonely
You missing being my one and only.
I will succeed down this road
One day at a time as i've been told.
Getting to know myself the first hurdle
A puppet for a drug so long
It wrote my words and I just sang along.
New emotions, feelings and creativity
Feeling sexual, sexy
Is this really me?
I'm learning to see a beautiful person
No longer under a metadone haze
Less then one percent yep that's me hooray.
For thirteen years
You held me in your bossom
Me so drugged up
Unaware I was in prison.
Everday I rose early
To drink your bitter juice
I was always in a crunch
To get my methadone and feel that rush.
I was kept isolated and alone
Swimming in your pink loveliness
It was all I needed to feel right at home.
No feelings, no love
No one could get in
No emotions allowed
With methadone this being unforgivable sin.
Awake all night
Asleep all day
Methadone you ruled my life
A king you truly reigned.
Less then one percent
Have ever succeeded to shake this habit
Crimsin you're a lifer
Freedom you can't have it.
A year later methadone free
In the one percentile
I can't belive this is me.
Getting to know who I truly am
Scary but exciting.
Trapped in that pink bubble for so long
I had abandoned my loved ones for a drug.
So I tread slowly on my shakey feet
This world for the first time facing head on
Without my methadone goggles on.
I won't say this trip has been easy
Sleepless nights, anxiety filled days
I wonder if my stomach will ever be straight.
Most days now I feel sane and secure
Still in my dreams
Methadone you do enter
To see if i'm home and lonely
You missing being my one and only.
I will succeed down this road
One day at a time as i've been told.
Getting to know myself the first hurdle
A puppet for a drug so long
It wrote my words and I just sang along.
New emotions, feelings and creativity
Feeling sexual, sexy
Is this really me?
I'm learning to see a beautiful person
No longer under a metadone haze
Less then one percent yep that's me hooray.
crimsin
Unveiling
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Unveiling
Tyrant of Words
121
Joined 25th Jan 2011 Forum Posts: 2635
The Streets
I was thrown to the streets
for being a momma
at the age of fifteen.
Not street wise by any means
over protected
by parents who thought this was wisdom.
The first year I moved twenty five times
it was always the same
house slave or some man's play thing.
Staying in homeless shelters
I met people long on the streets
I was intrigued.
For the first time free
from the wrath of my father
I wanted to get lost in the land of the forgotten.
Smoking pcp was my first intoduction
to the bliss of the numb
I could finally forget the shame
my parents said I had become.
Sleeping all day
running the streets at night
cruising with the cholos and cholas, I was having fun
I finally had a family that accepted me
getting high and fucking who ever I chose indiscriminately.
The pain that stuck
no one wanted to stay around for long
they were young and didn't need a girl with a baby
that's when I first met Jimmy
still reeling from the pain
I felt at the rejection of my family.
He talked of soul mates and mojo
A Native American
I loved him from day one.
He introduced me to banana splits and heroin
in his arms I finally felt peace
he was a warrior, street wise
he kept the wolves from me.
He taught me the art of short changing
buying fast food
and then saying they gave him the wrong change
the food would pile up
Jimmy would pull over and feed the homeless.
We lived from motel to motel
ripping and running
soon Jimmy and I had started doing burglaries
to feed our hungry habit
after awhile the cops were looking for us
we had become notorious.
At the end of the day
we would slam our dope
knowing our time was growing short.
When the detectives caught up with us
Jimmy took all the blame
and was put on the news for being infamous.
Thirteen years was his sentence
he's still in prison to this day
he keeps getting new beefs
because he is a fighter
and never does what the cops say.
I owe him my freedom for taking the blame
i'm clean now, while Jimmy remains in chains
I wish for him to get out some day
and be free from prison and drugs
I owe him my life though he introduced me to heroin
he kept me alive when I just wanted to die.
I was thrown to the streets
for being a momma
at the age of fifteen.
Not street wise by any means
over protected
by parents who thought this was wisdom.
The first year I moved twenty five times
it was always the same
house slave or some man's play thing.
Staying in homeless shelters
I met people long on the streets
I was intrigued.
For the first time free
from the wrath of my father
I wanted to get lost in the land of the forgotten.
Smoking pcp was my first intoduction
to the bliss of the numb
I could finally forget the shame
my parents said I had become.
Sleeping all day
running the streets at night
cruising with the cholos and cholas, I was having fun
I finally had a family that accepted me
getting high and fucking who ever I chose indiscriminately.
The pain that stuck
no one wanted to stay around for long
they were young and didn't need a girl with a baby
that's when I first met Jimmy
still reeling from the pain
I felt at the rejection of my family.
He talked of soul mates and mojo
A Native American
I loved him from day one.
He introduced me to banana splits and heroin
in his arms I finally felt peace
he was a warrior, street wise
he kept the wolves from me.
He taught me the art of short changing
buying fast food
and then saying they gave him the wrong change
the food would pile up
Jimmy would pull over and feed the homeless.
We lived from motel to motel
ripping and running
soon Jimmy and I had started doing burglaries
to feed our hungry habit
after awhile the cops were looking for us
we had become notorious.
At the end of the day
we would slam our dope
knowing our time was growing short.
When the detectives caught up with us
Jimmy took all the blame
and was put on the news for being infamous.
Thirteen years was his sentence
he's still in prison to this day
he keeps getting new beefs
because he is a fighter
and never does what the cops say.
I owe him my freedom for taking the blame
i'm clean now, while Jimmy remains in chains
I wish for him to get out some day
and be free from prison and drugs
I owe him my life though he introduced me to heroin
he kept me alive when I just wanted to die.
gazellemon
Bradley J
Forum Posts: 372
Bradley J
Fire of Insight
6
Joined 6th Mar 2014Forum Posts: 372
A bitter sweet symphony indeed,
Cast in defeat it seems,
a catastrophe as I fall to my knees,
fast life living to commiserating miseries in a heart beat,
I'm left asking why has this happened to me?
like if I repeat this disastrous scene-
can I see what it actually means?
And give back these demons that terrorize my dreams?
this tragedy is snapped to my back like a monkey,
I am fucking lucky i didn't hurt anybody,
Physically I mean, it ruined my self esteem,
rattled my beliefs and removed my inner peace,
so I am forced to wrestle my inner beast,
and look at a reality in pieces to see that-
Maybe I needed to be speechless,
to realize my inner weakness,
Do I need me some Jesus?
Please, I'm going to lace up these Adidas,
I'm no genius, but got a thesis,
Mind over matter; psychokinesis,
So till I'm deceased my biggest enemy is me,
I won't concede, I'll sharpen my mentally-
keep my eyes on the target and firmly believe,
that if I harness my energy I will achieve,
You see, this valley is so deep,
So when I arrive at the peak my victory will be complete,
I pity those who haven't figured out this mystery,
that life liberties are sweetest after injury,
A history of mistakes and regrets,
like misspelled tattoos across the chest,
I wear these wounds not to impress,
but to remind myself of my mess i left,
Cast in defeat it seems,
a catastrophe as I fall to my knees,
fast life living to commiserating miseries in a heart beat,
I'm left asking why has this happened to me?
like if I repeat this disastrous scene-
can I see what it actually means?
And give back these demons that terrorize my dreams?
this tragedy is snapped to my back like a monkey,
I am fucking lucky i didn't hurt anybody,
Physically I mean, it ruined my self esteem,
rattled my beliefs and removed my inner peace,
so I am forced to wrestle my inner beast,
and look at a reality in pieces to see that-
Maybe I needed to be speechless,
to realize my inner weakness,
Do I need me some Jesus?
Please, I'm going to lace up these Adidas,
I'm no genius, but got a thesis,
Mind over matter; psychokinesis,
So till I'm deceased my biggest enemy is me,
I won't concede, I'll sharpen my mentally-
keep my eyes on the target and firmly believe,
that if I harness my energy I will achieve,
You see, this valley is so deep,
So when I arrive at the peak my victory will be complete,
I pity those who haven't figured out this mystery,
that life liberties are sweetest after injury,
A history of mistakes and regrets,
like misspelled tattoos across the chest,
I wear these wounds not to impress,
but to remind myself of my mess i left,
calamitygin
Jennifer Michael McCurry
Forum Posts: 2047
Jennifer Michael McCurry
Tyrant of Words
28
Joined 22nd June 2015Forum Posts: 2047
You deserve this Crim. Methadone free too. Knew there was something...this is so good.