Poetry competition CLOSED 28th September 2015 10:32pm
WINNER
Anonymous
Anonymous
Pain
Passion For You No More
longing to come on
like a warm summer caress
tantalizing your senses
enticing and inviting
open with a hint of vulnerability
let you gaze at the softer side of me
too strong of will
I came on with brazen
whorish thoughts
fantasies that will never see light
really I never intended that
just longed to reach you anyway I could
acting like an adolescent
foolish in my inept attempts
at seducing your mind
I feel my passion fading
with your harsh rebuff
saying I like it rough
not from your hands
that comes down
like a sledge hammer
I wish I had some beauty on the horizon
something to lift my soul from the pit
really I just wanted your friendship
though it's clear
you didn't want mine
thinking yourself a world above me
though you may be right
it doesn't hurt to show some compassion
to us Earth bound beings
since you never read me
this won't reach your ears
just needed to get it out
breathe in the fresh air
longing to come on
like a warm summer caress
tantalizing your senses
enticing and inviting
open with a hint of vulnerability
let you gaze at the softer side of me
too strong of will
I came on with brazen
whorish thoughts
fantasies that will never see light
really I never intended that
just longed to reach you anyway I could
acting like an adolescent
foolish in my inept attempts
at seducing your mind
I feel my passion fading
with your harsh rebuff
saying I like it rough
not from your hands
that comes down
like a sledge hammer
I wish I had some beauty on the horizon
something to lift my soul from the pit
really I just wanted your friendship
though it's clear
you didn't want mine
thinking yourself a world above me
though you may be right
it doesn't hurt to show some compassion
to us Earth bound beings
since you never read me
this won't reach your ears
just needed to get it out
breathe in the fresh air
Anonymous
Pain
The kind that makes you cry yourself to sleep at night
You catch yourself holding your hand over your heart
tapping it slowly with tears running down your face, tears which you cannot fight
The kind that never goes away, tearing your life apart
The kind that someone else caused
someone that you love and now secretly hate
You only have memories and pictures of your loss
The kind that will seal your fate
The kind that is life altering
and has your psyche gone awry
It is a loss that is far and has you still reaching
The kind that makes you want to die
The kind you get from a trauma
inflicted upon you with no warning
It caused your life to change and has left drama
The kind that makes every day depressing
The kind you get from a love lost
that left through no fault of your own
and you never got a chance to say goodbye or tell them what it cost
The kind that you cannot stop or ever condone
The kind that you have no control over
you want to stop it but are unable to
so you cry every night under your blanket's cover
The kind that you would never ask another to go through
The kind that leaves a constant ache
in the pit of your stomach and guilt
for something that was not another's to take
The kind that has you pondering suicide; the kind that mental illness built
The kind that makes you cry yourself to sleep at night
You catch yourself holding your hand over your heart
tapping it slowly with tears running down your face, tears which you cannot fight
The kind that never goes away, tearing your life apart
The kind that someone else caused
someone that you love and now secretly hate
You only have memories and pictures of your loss
The kind that will seal your fate
The kind that is life altering
and has your psyche gone awry
It is a loss that is far and has you still reaching
The kind that makes you want to die
The kind you get from a trauma
inflicted upon you with no warning
It caused your life to change and has left drama
The kind that makes every day depressing
The kind you get from a love lost
that left through no fault of your own
and you never got a chance to say goodbye or tell them what it cost
The kind that you cannot stop or ever condone
The kind that you have no control over
you want to stop it but are unable to
so you cry every night under your blanket's cover
The kind that you would never ask another to go through
The kind that leaves a constant ache
in the pit of your stomach and guilt
for something that was not another's to take
The kind that has you pondering suicide; the kind that mental illness built
Pain Doesn't Ask For I.D.
Pain doesn't care your age or race
You won't get carded at the door
Asked if your old enough to handle these feelings
Some lose their moms at three
For being different or schizophrenic
Then being carelessly handed over to a guardian
Who didn't want them
Or being homeless at fifteen
For being a momma too young
Pain doesn't ask are you ready for the ride
It just injects its self into your veins
Just for fun
I got angry today
I guess i'm emo I guess that means emotional
I don't know i'm not a young one
I'm aged and have been through the storms
Yet I haven't yet grown the callouses
It takes to turn a blind eye
When someone is being hurt
Just for the hell of it
I should know better by now
Anger and bullying
Is just pain turned inwards
Or lashed out at the world
No pain doesn't ask for i.d.
It comes at any age
empathy is something
I guess you have to gain
Pain doesn't care your age or race
You won't get carded at the door
Asked if your old enough to handle these feelings
Some lose their moms at three
For being different or schizophrenic
Then being carelessly handed over to a guardian
Who didn't want them
Or being homeless at fifteen
For being a momma too young
Pain doesn't ask are you ready for the ride
It just injects its self into your veins
Just for fun
I got angry today
I guess i'm emo I guess that means emotional
I don't know i'm not a young one
I'm aged and have been through the storms
Yet I haven't yet grown the callouses
It takes to turn a blind eye
When someone is being hurt
Just for the hell of it
I should know better by now
Anger and bullying
Is just pain turned inwards
Or lashed out at the world
No pain doesn't ask for i.d.
It comes at any age
empathy is something
I guess you have to gain
What will I do now I don't have you?
What will I do now I don't have you?
It's hard to define what I'm going through.
I can't explain the turbulent emotion;
The guilt and angst in every notion;
The flurry of fear of passing time.
Clawing at the knowledge you will never be mine.
Like a deer caught in the headlights of life
You swerve and soak me with a puddle of strife
As you pass on by in the darkened gloom
I lie here composing in my solemn room.
To hold you close; to feel your heart
Beating; pounding. I'm falling apart.
I know not what steps, next to take
To feel your touch; to feel the rake
Of your polished nails upon my back;
To taste the sweetness of your moistened crack;
To cup in my hand your heaving chest;
To make you moan as I stroke your breast.
I long for the day when once more you gaze
At me; for me. If, but for a few days.
To nibble your neck and make you gasp
I'd gladly receive this as my task.
I know this shall not come to pass.
I know I shall no more taste that ass.
I am resigned to the zone of friend.
The torment it brings must surely end
For if it remains it shall destroy me.
In sanity of mind if not in body.
But in saying this I fear ostracision
From your life. It's your decision.
That alone would crush my soul.
I do not wish this to be my goal.
It's not to be, so, so be it.
Act upon this as you see fit.
What will I do now I don't have you?
It's hard to define what I'm going through.
I can't explain the turbulent emotion;
The guilt and angst in every notion;
The flurry of fear of passing time.
Clawing at the knowledge you will never be mine.
Like a deer caught in the headlights of life
You swerve and soak me with a puddle of strife
As you pass on by in the darkened gloom
I lie here composing in my solemn room.
To hold you close; to feel your heart
Beating; pounding. I'm falling apart.
I know not what steps, next to take
To feel your touch; to feel the rake
Of your polished nails upon my back;
To taste the sweetness of your moistened crack;
To cup in my hand your heaving chest;
To make you moan as I stroke your breast.
I long for the day when once more you gaze
At me; for me. If, but for a few days.
To nibble your neck and make you gasp
I'd gladly receive this as my task.
I know this shall not come to pass.
I know I shall no more taste that ass.
I am resigned to the zone of friend.
The torment it brings must surely end
For if it remains it shall destroy me.
In sanity of mind if not in body.
But in saying this I fear ostracision
From your life. It's your decision.
That alone would crush my soul.
I do not wish this to be my goal.
It's not to be, so, so be it.
Act upon this as you see fit.
You came in uninvited
I don't want you here
You know that
Yet you allowed yourself to enter
By force
You remind me of her
You make me regret my actions
You make me be ashamed of my self
But why do I secretly enjoy your company?
You resemble her memories
You manipulate me with her appearance
You know my weaknesses
You know I have no strength against her face
You will catch me off guard
Right there
Then you will start from my chest
Go down to stomach
I will just lie down
And close my eyes
You will slowly move all over my body
You make my legs go numb
You make me squeeze my forehead
Then you come towards my brain
My Beautiful Pain
Then you come out
In tears
.
.
.
I sniff, and I would
Look at my
Phone.
Again.
I don't want you here
You know that
Yet you allowed yourself to enter
By force
You remind me of her
You make me regret my actions
You make me be ashamed of my self
But why do I secretly enjoy your company?
You resemble her memories
You manipulate me with her appearance
You know my weaknesses
You know I have no strength against her face
You will catch me off guard
Right there
Then you will start from my chest
Go down to stomach
I will just lie down
And close my eyes
You will slowly move all over my body
You make my legs go numb
You make me squeeze my forehead
Then you come towards my brain
My Beautiful Pain
Then you come out
In tears
.
.
.
I sniff, and I would
Look at my
Phone.
Again.
Anonymous
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I carry a smile to hide the tears
Smoke this weed please this entity
Sweat and bleed defeat my enemies
Walk a dark mile with no one but my fears..
My only thoughts of how did I get this way
There was a time when I wasn't lonely,
There was time when my heart was at bay...
The world was so different..or so I thought,
I can't remember that night,
Or if I even put up a fight.....
None of that matters it just the death of my soul, so now they point and chatter
Instead of asking what's the matter...
Smoke this weed please this entity
Sweat and bleed defeat my enemies
Walk a dark mile with no one but my fears..
My only thoughts of how did I get this way
There was a time when I wasn't lonely,
There was time when my heart was at bay...
The world was so different..or so I thought,
I can't remember that night,
Or if I even put up a fight.....
None of that matters it just the death of my soul, so now they point and chatter
Instead of asking what's the matter...
Untitled
It feels so wrong.
Then, it feels perfect.
My mind is split.
I can't tell the difference.
My bed the snake pit--
Her head is worth it.
Those eyes are toxic.
I can't shake the feeling.
I can't take the pleading.
The sex is the reason.
I may never leave my room--
Not so long as she stays.
This may spell out doom.
She is not the type to date.
Lies lying all around us--
Lust is all it is with us.
Drugs are a must for us.
I can't pretend.
She is no best friend.
I'm on my own in the end.
Every time I touch her skin,
I'm falling for the wind.
This is another dead end--
Just castles made of sand.
It feels so wrong.
Then, it feels perfect.
My mind is split.
I can't tell the difference.
My bed the snake pit--
Her head is worth it.
Those eyes are toxic.
I can't shake the feeling.
I can't take the pleading.
The sex is the reason.
I may never leave my room--
Not so long as she stays.
This may spell out doom.
She is not the type to date.
Lies lying all around us--
Lust is all it is with us.
Drugs are a must for us.
I can't pretend.
She is no best friend.
I'm on my own in the end.
Every time I touch her skin,
I'm falling for the wind.
This is another dead end--
Just castles made of sand.
Anonymous
White knuckles
What is benign satisfaction
Skirting around hollowness, dawn to dusk
In theory of loneliness. A fallacy;
Perpetual days looped with lucid numbness
Desiring empathy from premeditated smiles
While being fucked 'till choked
And calling it, love.
Pulverized walls, shattered mosaic glass
On the cathedral pedestal in godless lust
The pathetic shrine of malign sacrifice
Crucifixion of accusations looming
with wrath, in delusional castle
Ornamented with rosaries
While chanting holy prayers regurgitating
The deadly sins. The sins which you adorned
On my flesh, unapologetically
Making me your woman. Your cunt
To whorishly worship your heartless carcass
In dismantled house of desires.
Crucify me to resurrect my soul
For your morbid amusement
Crushing my bones with weight of silence
Measure to measure on scale of empty promises
Enjoying the pain beneath ruins of Eden
My broken fingernails on your spineless accord
Drawing colorless blood with the vigor to streak
Scraping wounds searching for a pulse
Splattering through spline, dissipating
In sullen introspection; are you a martyr or a liar
Drowning is effortless, in saline.
Chain me to your ankle of final thoughts
I won't struggle to escape
Ignoring your pleas, blurring the present
With a swansong of a shooting star
To race across the skies.
I won't be here to watch
The crash
The burn
In your own demise.
What is benign satisfaction
Skirting around hollowness, dawn to dusk
In theory of loneliness. A fallacy;
Perpetual days looped with lucid numbness
Desiring empathy from premeditated smiles
While being fucked 'till choked
And calling it, love.
Pulverized walls, shattered mosaic glass
On the cathedral pedestal in godless lust
The pathetic shrine of malign sacrifice
Crucifixion of accusations looming
with wrath, in delusional castle
Ornamented with rosaries
While chanting holy prayers regurgitating
The deadly sins. The sins which you adorned
On my flesh, unapologetically
Making me your woman. Your cunt
To whorishly worship your heartless carcass
In dismantled house of desires.
Crucify me to resurrect my soul
For your morbid amusement
Crushing my bones with weight of silence
Measure to measure on scale of empty promises
Enjoying the pain beneath ruins of Eden
My broken fingernails on your spineless accord
Drawing colorless blood with the vigor to streak
Scraping wounds searching for a pulse
Splattering through spline, dissipating
In sullen introspection; are you a martyr or a liar
Drowning is effortless, in saline.
Chain me to your ankle of final thoughts
I won't struggle to escape
Ignoring your pleas, blurring the present
With a swansong of a shooting star
To race across the skies.
I won't be here to watch
The crash
The burn
In your own demise.
Fractured Diamonds
... years of
crying tears,
drinking your tears
fending off your fears
as you
rent to ruble
your spacious shelter
of the fortress in my heart
abandoned my Ark,
my monsoon of love
could not quench your parchedness
a heavenly body
unraveled into a black hole,
ruthlessly gorging,
eternity cannot heal those wounds
a despairing departure,
dragging the burden
of a brokenhearted behemoth
even a fractured diamond,
although defected,
aspires to shine
through spiderly cracks
whence hast thine cherished caterpillar gone?
a matured moth
captivated being
consumed by the fire...
~
... years of
crying tears,
drinking your tears
fending off your fears
as you
rent to ruble
your spacious shelter
of the fortress in my heart
abandoned my Ark,
my monsoon of love
could not quench your parchedness
a heavenly body
unraveled into a black hole,
ruthlessly gorging,
eternity cannot heal those wounds
a despairing departure,
dragging the burden
of a brokenhearted behemoth
even a fractured diamond,
although defected,
aspires to shine
through spiderly cracks
whence hast thine cherished caterpillar gone?
a matured moth
captivated being
consumed by the fire...
~
Where Art Thou My Child
I was in a deep slumber,
When you came into my world,
I didn't even woke up,
When you bade me goodbye,
Now when I have regained my senses,
And search for you like mad,
I came to know that you went to sleep,
Never again to wake,
Sleeping in peace,
Covered in the blanket of earth.
(A melancholy of every Mother in this world who couldn't see her new born baby alive even for a single moment)
I was in a deep slumber,
When you came into my world,
I didn't even woke up,
When you bade me goodbye,
Now when I have regained my senses,
And search for you like mad,
I came to know that you went to sleep,
Never again to wake,
Sleeping in peace,
Covered in the blanket of earth.
(A melancholy of every Mother in this world who couldn't see her new born baby alive even for a single moment)
Wedding Day
In the morning she waited for me,
Outside the church,
Dressed in her white wedding gown,
Holding a bouquet of red roses in hand,
In the evening she came,
All dressed in black,
To bid me farewell and lay the white roses,
Upon my final resting place
In the morning she waited for me,
Outside the church,
Dressed in her white wedding gown,
Holding a bouquet of red roses in hand,
In the evening she came,
All dressed in black,
To bid me farewell and lay the white roses,
Upon my final resting place
Pain
All I got is pain..
All my deeds in vain..
Or so it seems!
Enough recoiling,
Enough blood boiling,
Yes I did scream!
Self pity, self harm,
No longer hold charm,
You held the beam!
Stars in my eye,
No more make me cry
Now I do not dream!
If there was no pain,
Then what was my gain,
Thought love was supreme!
All I got is pain..
All my deeds in vain..
Or so it seems!
Enough recoiling,
Enough blood boiling,
Yes I did scream!
Self pity, self harm,
No longer hold charm,
You held the beam!
Stars in my eye,
No more make me cry
Now I do not dream!
If there was no pain,
Then what was my gain,
Thought love was supreme!
Lord I wish I could burn
your platonic effigy
its not even
un-reasonable facsimile
yet you still wanna feel me
keep me hanging
a golden parachute
to lessen your suffering
all the while
oblivious to mine
no, not quite,
not oblivious
just ignoring
ignorant
and un-kind
banking on my character
my reticence to fight
you throw my own
Key Lime Piety
right back in my face
so sure I wont disgrace
common sense, logic, reason
for some petty display
of emotion that has no chance to sway
prior decisions made
preying on my inability
to join the fray
never above it
just not "of" it
you know I`ll stand,
sit, sleep silent
stoicly absorb the incision
of your Demon Trident
bleed internally
while you skip off
on your merry way
as you deposit the price
you swore I`d NEVER pay
take advantage of my maturity
wear me like Social Security
madame told ya bout men like me
all used up
I still got your back
as strong as yesterday
when you played with me
when you layed with me
when you lied to me
your platonic effigy
its not even
un-reasonable facsimile
yet you still wanna feel me
keep me hanging
a golden parachute
to lessen your suffering
all the while
oblivious to mine
no, not quite,
not oblivious
just ignoring
ignorant
and un-kind
banking on my character
my reticence to fight
you throw my own
Key Lime Piety
right back in my face
so sure I wont disgrace
common sense, logic, reason
for some petty display
of emotion that has no chance to sway
prior decisions made
preying on my inability
to join the fray
never above it
just not "of" it
you know I`ll stand,
sit, sleep silent
stoicly absorb the incision
of your Demon Trident
bleed internally
while you skip off
on your merry way
as you deposit the price
you swore I`d NEVER pay
take advantage of my maturity
wear me like Social Security
madame told ya bout men like me
all used up
I still got your back
as strong as yesterday
when you played with me
when you layed with me
when you lied to me
