Suicide

Anonymous said:<< post removed >>

What I'd like to know is why did you see fit to put the "LOL" emoticon at  the end of your statement? Those of us who have been suicidal or have been touched by it in some way, do not find it something to "Laugh Out Loud" about.

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Who wants to bet "Virgin" and "Zombie" will enter this and win?

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I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN FADE AWAY
(a suicide poem)


I have lived my life fast and loose
Sampled the feast spread before me
Made love to both women and men
Tried euphoriants and oils which soothed me
For a while I had fame, more than that – notoriety
For a while I had money and some influence
For a while I lived like I would die immediately

Then came the fall as fashion changes
I was yesterday's heroine, no longer “in”
The papers spoke of me in past tense
Even the tabloids ignored me
So I became more daring
Tried suicide, overdosed twice
Did not cause a ripple
I may have been dead

My career revived and once again
For a brief while, I was trendy again
Then came the catastrophe
With the sick fan
Who tried to stalk me
Who I shot by accident
I could not live through that

I became a legend then
Suicide at 27
Joined Janis and Jimi and all the rest
My fans outside the chapel sway
They do not know:
That I would rather die than fade away.

I don't know if any of you guys watch the tv show, "Rizzoli & Isles," however, one of its stars committed suicide today, August 19th. I don't if the show gets broadcasted anywhere outside of the USA, but I enjoy the show and enjoyed the performance of Lee Thompson Young, who played Detective Barry Frost. He was a good actor and may he RIP. Anyway, I thought I should post this seeing as how this thread has to do with suicide. And just saying, haven't we all at one time or another thought about what it would be like to take our own life or to just die...depressing times make us all think that.

Suicide

It has come to this.
To end it all.
No one cares.
No one gives a fuck.

teachers hate me,
They call me 'filthy'
i go home to cry.

enoughs enough.
its time to leave.
ive cried to much.

I write that silly little note.
GOODBYE, I LOVED YOU ALL.
BUT NONE OF YOU CARED.

i get that gun.
put it to my head.
pull the trigger...

darkness surrounds me.
my eyes closing,
its over all over.
im free.

The Decision for What?

An endless void of peace,
A starless night of sleep.
A hope long gone,
Dreams lost into the deep.

The world was harder,
The skies darker,
Words were hard to form.

If only I had the courage,
To bleed.
It's a strange sort of awe,
When you see the mark of another.

Admire, amazed, afraid.
So afraid,
That I won't do it.
But am I more afraid that I will?

If you take part in this comp
Make sure to use small words
So he can understand the meaning when he judges.
He's asked me to dumb myself down in simple conversation..
Jussayin..

What? ohh hell no he didn't. lol ... wow. had i known wait .. is this the one . i'm out ..

Not saying hell bite your shit or anything..
Better safe than sorry.

I found her
Face down in water
Body stiff and cold
All hope gone

I found her
Bloodied and bruised
Body no longer her own
All love lost

I found her
Alone in a cold room
Body long gone
All pain ended

I found her
Smiling away the night
Body finally relaxed
All worry ended

I found her
A suicide later
A intake of water later
I found her to late

I hound her
Weaker than I thought
She said she would stay
She left her loved ones

I found her
Stronger than I could be
To end all she ever had
I found her after she was gone

It's not Firing:

My gun is loaded,
But it's not firing.

My mind is ready,
But it's not pulsing.

My words are prepared,
But their not speaking.

My noose is made,
But it's not tightening.

My gas is spread,
But it's not lighting.

My heart is iced,
But it's not frozen.

My mood is set,
But it's not telling.

Telling of the anger behind my dead eyes.

The mirror talks.....

the voices keep talking
the mirror talks back
you are so stupid
you are so fat
you are so worthless
look at you, look at you
what are you doing
why do you continue
stop breathing
stop seeing
stop touching
stop feeling
hey you, worthless
do you hear me
look at me
don't ignore me worthless
pick up that razor
yeah that one there
pick it up, go ahead
that's a girl you got it
open it, open it
OPEN IT!
ah you aren't
so worthless after all
you are listening to me
that's right, open it
now look at me
stare at me
can you see me
that piece of shit
in the mirror do you see me
yeah pay close attention
hear what I say
do as I command
place that razor to your wrist
that's right there ya go
good job
just keep looking at me
do as I say
now press that sharp blade
press it deep into the vein
just press it, feel it
entering the skin
keep looking at me
stare deep into my eyes
into the mirror see my image
press it, now move it,
move it towards your elbow
that's it deeper harder
press press press
LOOK AT ME!
KEEP LOOKING AT ME!
don't take your eyes
off of me, keep moving
keep pressing
deeper deeper
can you feel that
can you feel the pain
leaving your body
leaving your soul
the warmth of blood dripping
dripping down your hand
KEEP LOOKING AT ME!
don't look down
don't stop cutting
keep pressing
keep feeling the pain slip
away far away far away
that's it your eyes are
becoming clear now
your head is becoming cloudy
your ears are ringing
you feel faint, but HEY YOU
LOOK AT ME!
when it's time you will
slip away, away from it all
you sure showed me
didn't you, you showed me
you proved that you aren't worthless
you proved that you aren't fat
you proved that you aren't stupid
you sure did, you got me
now finally you no longer
breath
see
touch
hear
you now just taste
taste the sweetness
of death
slipping to the floor
no longer in pain
no longer hurt
finally at peace
in sweet bliss of
nothingness