Cheating

When first I saw her heading for the stairs
To run and assist a user
I was struck by her beautiful smile
As she greeted me with an enthusiastic “hi!”

“I want to get to know this intriguing woman,” I said
She seemed to exude such self confidence
A quality of which I am lacking
We began to chat about anything and everything
I grew quickly to know and like her

Her open minded view of the world
The way she spoke of intimate things
So lively so intelligent
I began to open my heart to her
In retrospect, perhaps too much

I am by nature a romantic
Emotional to a fault
She must have felt, at times,
That I spoke to her almost as a girlfriend

We went to lunch often
The highlight of my week
I felt more comfortable in her presence
Than with the majority of my friends
I could say anything to her, I thought

I found that even the most open mind
Has a point of closure
One day we began to chat
Regarding secret, deeply intimate things
I was enthralled with the passion
With which she spoke of things that
Make her supremely happy

Because we are both married
There is no doubt that our
Intimacy ended with conversation
Frank discussions that involved no
Talk of us together as anything more than
Friends and confidants

I wrote, for her, a poem
One that I maintain encapsulates
Her beauty and joie de vivre
Some poems are meant to be written
But never presented to
The muse by whom it was inspired

I seemed to cross the line of impropriety
Sensing that I had, perhaps, become
With her obsessed
She abruptly ended
Whatever was our relationship

I hurt like a schoolboy
Whose heart has been trampled
For the first time
The emptiness is terrible

And by this pain I know
That I allowed myself
To grow too fond of this girl

I am left wondering if she hurts as well
Was I at all considered a friend
One thing is clear
I felt more for her
Then she for me

An Office Affair

I’ve seen you happy
Like at your birthday party
Where forty candles nearly
Burned the office down.

I’ve seen you sad
Like the day after
Your mother’s funeral,
Eyes red, swollen and  blue.

I’ve seen you overjoyed
Like the day you hit
The numbers for a grand,
Buying that puppy you wanted.

I’ve seen you pissed as all hell
After a BMW sideswiped
Your CRX in the parking
Lot without stopping.

Regardless of the emotion
Of the day my belly
Goes through its little
Butterfly dance as I spy
Two buttons on your blouse
Undone and the rosiness
Of your chest approaching
The cream lace of your bra.

Most would say that makes
Me a pervert and that shitting
Where you eat is a bad idea.
Especially since I’ve been married
Long enough for two stints
Of the seven year itch.
Call a spade a spade and I am
A lowlife scumbag motherfucker.

But I see so much more of you
Than my roommate of a wife
Anyway and I swear sometimes
There’s a twinkle in your eye
For me and me alone as you
Brush against me by the file cabinet
With a slight blush on your cheek
And a smile that wanders thru my soul.

The clock hits five
With the only good thing
About this fucking job
Walking out the lobby
As I go home to pick fights
For no reason but to keep
The relief valves open
In my home away from home.

Cheating
Twister is how I feel now in my head.
You messed it up when I knew you were dead.
Why did you fuck with that girl.
you knew i was only inches for breaking.
your my undoing, you stupid bitch.
i loved you but it wasn't enough
you cheated and fucked with my head, now,
ha ha you fucking dead.
Never fuck with my head and you wont wind up dead.
you cheat for the last time.
i was willing to give you my heart but,
you choose to wind up dead instead.
a good girl like me would treat you right and do anything for you,
but you fucked up and let me go.

Cheating bitch

Started out with it was just a text
It's just a call this time I guess
Hide on the side and text
What happens you will regret
Going to the toilet cause I'm mad
Not saying a word when u turn to answer a text
Back from the toilet you decide to tell me
Said I didn't text back
But I heard the keyboard when you wrote a text
That's why I left
Not as mad when I left
Saying it has been going on awhile
Went past anger by a mile
Asked for his age the flame went wild
not the first time you hide to text
Now it's phone calls at night
Sometimes I felt like you were cheating on the side
Now I know I was right

C.H.E.A.T

Commitment is what you get at the start
Makes you feel like you on top if the world
Believe in faith destiny cupid magic and dreams
Fly like a skyscraper and you feel alot safer
Gives you trust joy and freedom
Play with a heart like it's your best toy and you want to keep it safe

Horror is when everything goes wrong
Lies start coming in like it's an open gate and the is no stopping them
Or a open bar, open house party but guess what it's not fun
Keeps you on your feet and brings you back to reality

Excitement goes out the window and leaves you alone
No joy no fun no doubt in your mind everything is gone
Try bring it back even try out new games but it's too far away
Nothing left so you contemplating to go or stay

Acting telling yourself you're stronger than before
And the love is still there but sometimes you ask yourself where
Smiles laughs hug and kisses feel different yet you tell yourself they're not
Love love has stopped yet you say it's not

Time is when you know the end is near
The heart beats slow yet don't wanna let go
The truth is coming out and that's when you start to care
Your brain and heart is playing truth or dare
Someone is saying this is not fair and the pain will always be there
Bye is all that's left to be said
You go separate ways

I can't tell it you're telling the truth.
I'm racking my brain for every little excuse.
I love you, and i trust you.
But that's the issue,
When one has calibrated,
To the blindness that is love.