Demon inside
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Good Girl
Silver blades breaks the barrier
a secret literally tearing me apart
hidden behind jeans and sweaters
"I'm just cold" is my excuse
Stare at the food on my plate
the voices inside call it my enemy
so I push it away like a good girl
heaven forbid I'm ever bigger than a twig
But sometimes i have to, sometimes I can't win
I'm weak like the rest of the world
and then I hate what I've done
the so-called poison I've indulged
so I rid myself of the filth
just like I'm supposed to
And the blades beckons me again
my head spins as I fall to the floor
scars line my arms and my thighs
no one will ever understand
it's not for anyone to judge
this is my demon, my prison
that my mind keeps me trapped in
Since I was seven I've been fighting this war
depression and thoughts of breathing no more
Eighteen's approaching and it's ever worsening
still they say im in recovery
what fools, what a part I have played
I blind them, but my heart sees the pain
my demon, it haunts
forever... until I give up...
Silver blades breaks the barrier
a secret literally tearing me apart
hidden behind jeans and sweaters
"I'm just cold" is my excuse
Stare at the food on my plate
the voices inside call it my enemy
so I push it away like a good girl
heaven forbid I'm ever bigger than a twig
But sometimes i have to, sometimes I can't win
I'm weak like the rest of the world
and then I hate what I've done
the so-called poison I've indulged
so I rid myself of the filth
just like I'm supposed to
And the blades beckons me again
my head spins as I fall to the floor
scars line my arms and my thighs
no one will ever understand
it's not for anyone to judge
this is my demon, my prison
that my mind keeps me trapped in
Since I was seven I've been fighting this war
depression and thoughts of breathing no more
Eighteen's approaching and it's ever worsening
still they say im in recovery
what fools, what a part I have played
I blind them, but my heart sees the pain
my demon, it haunts
forever... until I give up...
Anonymous
"CREATION"
GOD damn creation
For realization
Please take notation
For inspiration
Smoke for sedation
For the duration
Ask for vocation
For confrontation
Need eradication
For my salvation
Need abdication
For altercation
Need consultation
For negation
My accusation
For aggravation
Is this damnation
For celebration
Awful sensation
For a vacation
GOD damn creation
For realization
Please take notation
For inspiration
Smoke for sedation
For the duration
Ask for vocation
For confrontation
Need eradication
For my salvation
Need abdication
For altercation
Need consultation
For negation
My accusation
For aggravation
Is this damnation
For celebration
Awful sensation
For a vacation
Anonymous
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But I let you.
You dug your talons into me.
But I let you.
You leeched off my happiness.
But I let you.
You pulled me inside-out.
But I let you.
You reduced me to a nonentity.
But I let you.
You stole my very essence from me.
But I let you.
You changed me.
But I let you.
I let you.
I
let
you.
I became the doormat to your endless demands,
Always caving to your desire to destroy.
To destroy my relationships.
To destroy my joy.
To destroy me.
But I let you.
I let you.
I
let
you.
Why did I let you?
Time and time again,
Why did I let you cripple me?
Why did I let you keep me in bed for days at a time?
Why did I let you push me to tears daily?
Why did I let you paralyze me with hopelessness?
Why did I let you cripple me?
Time and time again,
Why did I let you?
There came a time when there was no “you” and “me.”
It was “we.” “We” became “us.”
We dragged me down to your level.
We dug your talons into me.
We leeched off my happiness.
We pulled me inside-out.
We reduced me to a nonentity.
We stole my very essence from me.
We changed me.
But I let us.
I let us.
I
let
us.
I let us.
I let us destroy my relationships, destroy my joy, destroy me.
I let us cripple me,
Keep me in bed for days at a time,
Push me to tears daily,
Paralyze me with hopelessness.
But I let us.
I let us.
I
let
us.
Now I can see
That this “we”
Need not be;
I am me.
And me?
Me doesn’t want you around anymore.
Me wants to be me.
Without you.
Goodbye.
Forever.
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