A Self Description.

Describe yourself, how you feel about yourself, or anything in that general vicinity. I just wanted to know how everyone here views themselves.

400 words or less (I won't be counting).
3 entries, old or new.
2 weeks.
Rhyme Schemes preferred but not necessary.
Titles desired but not needed.
Collabs acceptable but counted as an entry from both parties.

am thoughts

woke up on the couch  
to last night's dinner burning  
on the stove -  
i lost my appetite  
while fingering through  
glossy pages of vogue,  
wishing i was something to look at  
rather than a broken wing  
on a busy road
 
there's really nothing left here  
in this cage fit for  
less than a skeletal bird

there's a phone
(disconnected)
a pile of unwashed clothes
and me
 
and i don't leave  
by choice.  

i'm not locked/chained/fastened
under lock/chain/
and key
 
i'm just afraid  
and waiting for the world  
to slow down as
i collect my thoughts and  
my thoughts collect me

Standing there
In the falling light
Of the fading sun
At sunset
Staring at the waves so powerful rolling in
A voice echoes behind me over the deafening roar
"hey handsome"
She says
before she grabs me around the waist
Fingers racing over my body
Following paths of ink
She is the catalyst
Of my vanity
"God I love how your so tall and dark and sexy"
And I must admit
I'm not bad to look at
6'5 a height that proclaims health
Well muscled body
Trained from youth
Taut under a mixture of hazel nut skin and deep caramel
High cheek bones resting under dark brown eyes
And shaped eyebrows
"you should smile more"
And for her I do
A grin
Filled with sharp teeth perfectly even and white
Here I am a god
Standing powerful and mighty with the powers of nature all around me
That seem to connect to me
Through the tribal upon my skin
Only for royalty
I am great
And humble
But she is the catalyst
For my narcissism

I am a child of chaos
Who's soul was lost within the void
Left to wander aimlessly in the peaceful emptiness
I am a byproduct of the words unsaid
Left to be written down
I am the
Endless void of space
Compacted into a single entity
I control
The explosion of sound
The shade of color
Intensity of emotion
I am the ruler of my universe
I am the whisper within the wind
The report of a gun
Sweet bell chimes
The creaking of old wood
Crash of waterfall
Upon shore break tinted by auroral sunset
I am lost
Child calling wolf
To attract the pack
Be
Is what I am
Me is a state of mind
I am found
Runaway
Chained to invisible wall
That moves with me
I am free
Prisoner
Of my own self
I am captured civilian
I'm uknown territory
I an young
Scholar
Blind prophet
Mute speaker
Crippled messenger
Arthritic scribe
I am the spirit of rebellion
Transfused with head for reason
Heart for passion
Body for life
I am
Smack of lips
Pound of heartbeats
Roll of the tongue
Foreign language
American boy
Ethnic man
Native man
Polynesian man
I am
Ink'd
I am
Hieroglyphic scroll
I am me

Once before I was a man.. now I am much more
Into the molester of the dead, ripe deceased children
You have now been born, lacerations have pierced you
No dead child is safe, the lifeless childrens' corpse

A hidden shame.. time for the mutilation
I cannot resist, violation
Yes, oh yes, fornication
I am, me, this is who I am, yes..

Alter egos.. conscience?
Pleading me to yield
Sometimes I refuse to listen
Other times I beg for transition

Gratified from the corpses of children
Morbid thoughts enter into my mind
Over and over, I can't escape, the piercing grind
Proceeding my dead sex, I smother her decayed orifice

Mercilessly I hack, the child jugular vein
She's rotten.. dead, masturbating with her severed head
Lubricated, the child.. decomposition
Using my time on this earth thrashing dead children

Into a world beyond death
It torments me.. always
Every child, screaming my name
Rotting before me.. decayed

But this is what I am
Why mustn't I be proud?
They are frightening me
The childrens voices calling out

"I don't want to play anymore"
"Please.. stop.." No.. never..
Rotting corpse.. my shameful endeavor
PLEASE! I refuse to listen

What have I become?
Voices, dozens, multiple!
All the victims of the thrashings
Dozens haunt me in my dreams

Will I crawl for forgiveness?
I know what I am!
I'm sick, twisted in my mind.
But I commit the crimes today

For someone else in my psyche
I have lost control, I must obtain
Another rotting corpse
I steal into the night..

In search of more..

Memories, Shadows,
Are they nothing more than that?
Gloomy, disparate,
Reality is only a dream of delusion
Bleak, intricate,
They all have their twists
Cold, perplexing,
Subject to an elusive fate
Dark, irrefutable,
Must we continue this nightmare?
Dreary, seldom clear,
I call it life with no air

               The I in my eye





I  

feel
 
the sea flow  
in my veins  
and the stars are  
my jewels  

I  

am  

the soul heir  
of the universe  

I  

feel  

I  

am  

the whirling dervish  
the swirling radiance  
the seamless supernova  
the ageless cognizance  

I  

feel  

I  

am  

a million suns  
a tangent timelessnes  
a point of suchness  

I  

feel
 

I  

am  

the immortal starchild  
the living hyperdream  

I  

feel  

I  

am  

n o w and  

f o r e v e r

             

                Life as we know it



The cursor blinks
empty pages stare back

the walls remain where they are

in the shower
a happy child looks back shaking his head

in the streets in the neonflood
I get washed amidst

1.

waxy-artificial girls dressed in
high heels-low cut dresses-long overcoats-short skirts

2.

teen beefcakes screaming-speeding
on their bikes

3.

overweight mothers in lycra lost

in their IPods with their toddlers
throwing curious glances

I call my soulmate

She asks me to mellow out-ease up
I smile and start over

A girl


I'm a girl with a fragile heart
bandaged together with care.
In danger of shattering
and cracks spread everywhere.

I'm a girl
who hates being put on the spot.
I freeze up and mumble
like i've been smoking pot.

I'm a girl who is protective
of her family and her friends.
Hurt them, I come after you
and you won't live to see the end.

I'm a girl
who's filled with pain.
Life is full of sunshine,
but all I see is rain.

Fallen.

My life is misery, crude and cold,
Pain is all that makes it whole;
Stripped of my vanity, insanity prevails,
How can I belong when everything fails?;
One moment of peace, forever in gloom,
Dreams are broken, where nightmares bloom;

Struggling through, strong and true,
Betrayed at last, by some, by few;
Ignorance is bliss, something that I miss,
Tired and pissed, emptiness is this;
Spread the word, I'm going to die,
Lets see how many tears you cry;

To live another day, I lie to my mirror,
And bleed out my hate so I see clearer
Poison is my life, the cure is a curse,
To become a slave, I am not the first;
But vanity dies hard, I will not fail,
Bring the torture, this soul isn't frail.

Until the day I die, I suffer,
I am death, life is much tougher.

Nothing compares to you..


I am nothing compared to you
I always make mistakes
No matter how I may try
Compared to you, I'm second place

Of course , you think I'm better,
How you see that I don't know.
But in the end you'll have love,
And I'll be left alone

You draw them to you,
Like honey does a bee
In everything you do,
You're much sweeter than me

I am no diamond dear,
I have my knowledge and thats all..
I could never compete with you..
I might just withdrawl

First one I entered was old.. the above one is new.. (:

Hope you like them dear..

I AM A SHAPESHIFTER

My mother tried abortion, to get rid of me

My father tried to kill me slowly, by abandoning me

My husband never fixed the brakes on my car

Wherever I went, they wanted to get rid of me


I pleaded with GOD and asked WHY

No answer came, as with JOB in the BIBLE

There is no real answer

The Eastern Religions intrigued me

No answers from MONOTHEISM...you must have been BAD

To DESERVE this fate

Until the NEW AGE thinking came around

Buddhism, Hinduism, The Religions of the AmeroIndians

Brought me the only answer I know


I am a shape-shifter, a human chameleon

I have experienced several lives

All completely different

Things I did not believe in - like the ability to be invisible

Are part of me....I can be invisible in plain sight

Nobody sees me, unless I do something WRONG

So I live a life of GOOD DEEDS only

But I know what YOU HAVE DONE WRONG


You had abortions, because children were such a drag

You ruined the reputation of your colleague to get your gains

You cheated on your husband so as to get ahead

You fired an employee who had 8 mouths to feed

To hire an old crony who is your spying pal

Spies are useful to have, to do the scouting

Find out who is with you, who is not


My fate is such -  that once in a while

I am permitted do something really bad

Without the usual consequences

PAYBACK IS HELL, you will find out

My memory is long and I have been hurt a lot

Once in a while I get revenge

The perpetrator is never identified

For who can pick out an OWL in the POLICE LINEUP


I am an owl, I fly at night, silently I make my plans

Nobody can hear me fly in the dark

I can fly around the world in an instant

You can be far from me, but I will find you

Tickle your ACHILLES HEEL, so as to bring you down

To my level, not lower than me

You, who despised me, WHERE ARE YOU NOW?


HOW THE MIGHTY HAVE FALLEN

You are at MY LEVEL NOW

See how it feels to be REJECTED

For ATTRIBUTES you NEVER asked for...

Like your looks, your intelligence, your religion, your sex

Your parents, your family, your race, your heredity

These are given to us at birth


I never asked to be a plain jane

I never asked to be a woman

I never asked to be poor

I never asked to be sick

I never asked for my race

Why does the world hate me for things GOD GAVE ME?


So once in while, when I am an owl

I get to give PAYBACK to those who hurt me

It will NEVER COMPENSATE for all I have ENDURED

But it gives me a sense of satisfaction

And a reason to go on.

The man in striped gloves

The man in striped gloves,
He used to be so happy,
His heart was warm,
And his words were sappy.

Now his heart is broken,
And his smile is hollow,
The pain he feels,
He cannot swollow.

He's now lost,
In a world he doesn't belong,
He grows tired,
Of everyone asking whats wrong.

He loves one,
But she doesn't care,
He doubts she notices,
When he isn't there.

He's suposed to save her,
He needs to be saved too,
Will anyone help him,
Will it be you?

The man in striped gloves,
His heart breaks everyday,
All because of her,
There's nothing more to say.