Why We Didn't Work

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Sweet Torment

You have given me sweet torment
Which I return to every night
The enchanting smell of your perfume
Lingers as I turn out the light

The gentle hum of your voice
Echoes through my ears
The comfort of your embrace
Drives away my deepest fears

Your eyes brighten the darkness
To which I am always prone
And your heartbeat reminds me
That I am not alone

If I had known it was to end
I would have changed my wicked ways
So here I sit and curse my deeds
From now to the end of days

Bedrock

FUCK!    
Bleeding fuck upon you!    
Is this who I am to you?    
This is the fate you've decided for me?    
The place you've left me for all time?    
Unacceptable.    
Undeniable.    
Unforgivable indecency!    
Hand over fist I have served you faithfully   
And this is my reward?  
   
It must have been my amicability...      
that poured the foundation    
(Cement filling around my heels)    
I just wanted to love you    
(Encircling my ankles)    
Your wish was my command    
(Swallowing my calves)    
I thought to make you happy   
I would give you your dreams    
And whims...    
(Enveloping my knees)    
And now you dream of him?    
(Grasping at my thighs)    
So my mobility is done    
My legs and waist disappearing like a setting sun    
Dusk ushers in the cold    
(the mixture binds my chest)  
If I had known I needed venom    
To be the snake between your thighs    
I would have begun constricting sooner   
Now I have to fight to run    
To breathe, to swim, or climb   
To escape this little, filling box    
But my shoulders are growing heavy    
And you've already closed the lid
And sealed it  
with a set of matching locks    
   
But at least from here    
I can look up and see the constellations    
To dream of whims myself   
...and imagine    
What I could have been    
   
Hero...    
   
Myth...    
   
Or Monument...    
   
If I had known what it meant    
Before all this was set    
   
I would have given anything to be  
 
that Thing...    
   
Whatever it is,    
you wanted.

You looked at me
and frowned as you said,
"Dear I think it's better
If we just stay friends.."

When you walked away
Down that dreaded hall..
You took it with you..
My heart and all..

You left me there
Feeling insane..
Feeling stupid
For feeling this pain..

You said you looked back
A time or two..
But it doesn't subtract
The pain i'm going through..

You could say so much
Through so little words..
Your touch I need..
Your love my cure..

But this pain I will endure....
Though I promised no self harm..
So I will sit in the dark
Until I find my way to your arms..

Vines

Like vines
wrapped around a tree
my arms find comfort around your body
my nose feels your pulse
as half my face hides in messy hair
im in roots
tangled beneath dirt
i feel the embrace of the warm sun
slithering up my spine
nearly snake like
my heavy heart feels eerie
i thought loving was everything
but so far
its only the touch of skin


By: Bethany

Couches

   Feels like clouds
Feels like hot summer days
  Something sends chills
  Something feels smooth
Smell of ocean and soft mint
      hazed minds
         racing
        speeding
        Its over
        It breaks
         loving
         Caring
         Lied to
     Crumbling down
      Its raining
     Loud thunder
        Its over

By: Bethany

Lost In The Haze

When we met
it was love a first sight
but soon I realised
you had a queen
already on the thrown of your heart.

Heroin was her name
I new my love could never compete
just wanting to be part of your life
I let you be the conductor
taking me up and down that dark elevator.

Striking the match
the tar in the spoon
the smell of vinegar filling the room
tying off and slapping my vein hard
then sticking the needle in my arm.

Taking that elevator
all the way down to the ground
nodding off no longer caring
if you were around.

Soon we were ripping and running
stealing for our fix
you soon started holding out on me
so I started turning trixs.

The cops hot on our trail
we knew our time was growing short
I loved you but now I loved heroin more.

Lost in the haze of the black fog
we were seperated forever
our hearts eaten and gone.

You now in prison
it seems never to be free
I guess our love was doomed
never meant to be.

Drowning in Death

Here we are sitting in the quiet night
I look at you under the soft moonlight.
Teardrops slowly fall from your beautiful eyes
And the sight of them makes me wanna die.
I know there were things that got in our way
There were times we hurt each other with what we had to say.
But I’m here now to say that everything will be okay
All our pain will someday go away.
We hug in a tight loving embrace
But then I see the look on your angelic face.
And realize that through your hope and love the pain is still there
So I wrap my arms tighter around you to show I still truly care.
I kiss your tears away and hold you close for a while
When I look at you again your frown turns into a smile.
As I pull you in for a loving kiss
Your face turns red, something I’ve come to miss.
Suddenly I’m alone, and when I look around you’re gone
I sit up in bed, heart racing and eyes blurry, it’s almost dawn.
From my eyes flows a new steady stream
As I realize that once again, it was only a sad dream.
Sobs rack my broken body, for you’re still not with me
I question your motives, is this really how it had to be?
Were you really that unhappy, was it really that bad
Couldn’t you instead focus on the special love that we had?
You’ll never know how bad you hurt me, you changed my very life
You can’t see what I’m trying to tell you, that I can’t put up with this strife.
You might as well be squeezing the trigger, or pulling the blade
Just accept it now, this is the decision that I have made.
I told you what would happen if I ever lost you, but you didn’t believe me
So now because of you there’s a dead body floating out at sea.
You didn’t wanna talk or listen to me, and now your old lover is dead
I hope you never forget what you did and the guilt never leaves your head.
When you start getting sad again, there’s something I want you to know
YOU did this and caused this shit, YOU’RE the one who let ME go.
And if you decide to visit my gravesite, remember this hun
I still won’t forgive you for all the shit you’ve done.
Because even in death I remember the hurt and the stabbing pain
I remember the feeling of being rejected and left alone in the freezing rain.
So go ahead and try to get rid of the guilt, the regret, the sorrow
But it's still going to be there when you wake up tomorrow.
You should’ve been honest, but instead you lied
And now you’re the reason that I committed suicide.
Go now with this knowledge, and live your sad life day by day
I’ve shared my heart, there’s nothing left for me to say.
I finally understand that the pain and hurt will never cease
And now because of you i lay under a stone that says “Rest In Peace”.

Colourless dawn

You brought the colours
of dawn into my life
but you had to leave
at sunset.

magnets


magnets working against each-other
pulling something else in

gathered pain in old jam jars
now the lids won't fit back on

it's never going to end, but
the jars are slowly emptying

to a heart – from self destruction, with love

I remember falling all over myself
Just to be in your air space
Breaking myself into pieces
Just to get you to notice that I was bleeding too
Before I realised this knife was double-edged

Only a masochist finds a reason for pain
Ripping beauty to shreds
Before begging forgiveness like a worthless cretin
Pleading for mercy just to staunch the flow of agony
When it was I alone that lit the flame to a war
That would make passive-aggression look virtuous

And there is no noise as loud as the silence
Of words unspoken, asphyxiating on pride
When I refused to be the one to say
That one beautifully inadequate word
Over-used and under-meant

There would be no living without you
And though you chose to stay, I’d often turn
To homicidal musings when we came to blows of the intellect
And I’d leave you blue and black bruised
Grasping for words as weapons to strike me back

A self fulfilling ending would have been too much
Like failing to see a sunset
As it fell with majesty at my feet
Yet that was always my aim;
The perfect self destruction. If I was going down
I planned to take you with me

“Run, Forest, with a pocketful of chocolates”
Though there would be no hiding
When hearts don’t know distance or geography
Only the insanity of blood pumping through veins
In dysfunctional ecstasy that would only end in tears

From heaven to hell and back again
Between the curls of smoke lit from joints consumed
And mason jars of whiskey downed languidly
Under the pretense that enough band aids could hide
The bleeding I just wanted you to notice
When in reality, you just wanted to bleed to death
Alone, and make me watch… with love.

A Toast To A Bad Relationship

A drunk look of disappointment sits upon my face
I'm far removed my feelings have been misplaced
You're heartless, a maneater, a walking disgrace
You just up and left me without a single trace
Not even a goodbye or even a thank you note
You couldn't explain the condoms in the pockets of your coat
The scratches on your back the hickies on your throat
"Dogs will give you fleas!" my mama's favorite quote
My drinking your cheating we was destined for disaster
We gave up a long time ago on happily ever after
Once upon a time there was joy and there was laughter
We both played a role we were terrible actors
I indulge on cognac you're out past curfew
You come in real late and I'm too drunk to argue
The excuses, the lies, the changes we've been through
A serious breakup was long overdue
The fights we used to have would always be extreme
I was living a nightmare with the man of my dreams
Or so I thought you were but I guess it seems
I'm loaded with alcohol you're loaded with schemes
At first I'll admit you was God in my eyes
Now I consider you the Devil the one I despise
But I wasn't surprised at the sudden demise
Of what we had which was desperate cries
For whatever help we can acquire or receive
We looked like the perfect couple but looks can deceive
You said that you loved me like a fool I believed
I reached for the liquor while you were packing up to leave
I wanted to be wasted when you took your baggage
Threw the bottle across the room and like me it was damaged
As long as I'm intoxicated trust me I'll manage
You walking out the door have worked to my advantage

Cheers!

Getting rid of the stitches


I discard every scratching rag
for your lies were stitched within.

I'll bathe in the fresh
and wash with the pure
just to force you from my depths.

I sleep alone, wrapped in dreams
allowing you to sew in me.

When the morning wakes me
with familiar strokes
I must shed our old skin.

Today, my Death...




My black magic morning elixir
Entranced I stare into the darkened
mixture of tears
Disbelief setting in, I can't move
not an inch
I can't begin or get a grip
on a reality murdered and my sunken ship

I am ill equipped for today
and your smile, another plea
for another while

Allows pause in a reality to wind
as you distort me, attempt to
shock, derail, and stop me.

It's hard to breathe
yet I sit, invoking a deeper self
Rage overtaking my desire to
appear complacent

It's not a fair shake
and I just know not to ask why
I try and appear refined but inside
It's raw and well done
on the flip side

Yet, I continue to cry
and feel deranged
as you attempt another
re-arrange of the truth

And Clapton sings me away
a momentary detour, Until
Layla plays...
Remember those days..
When we danced and laughed
and lived in loves haze
Those nights seem further away

Today
Will be....

There's a window-just jump
knife, pill, I need a will
for today
Just today
Just today
Just today...

There is no just in today
and again, It's the
Knowing...

The getting up and going
The paper signing
The neighbors knowing
The explaining...

I should get moving
So much left to do and yet
My chest feels tight
My cheeks still wet

You ask me to just forget..
and again I am wrecked

Your hand outstretched
inviting me to
My own death

A You without I        

I await
for our future times
a golden spiked gate
amid the summer vines
can I compensate
for past written lines
myself I hate
because I made you cry
don't ever hesitate
or wonder why
for you I wait
under the crying sky
I capitulate
and inside I die
my mind frustrates
through a rubies eye
my heart you golden plate
then my soul it flies
yours I could not  break
for I'd rather die
if I turn to flakes
and blow off in a sigh
its because I could not take
a you without I