(Some have named it salvation the puritans, suicide shorthand. shortcut. cut-short.)
The suppressed grin provides the contrasting antithesis (or maybe the setting for an unceremonious departure?)
The commotion ends abruptly as the motionless body sits in an enviable trance
The Buddha of suburbia beneath the wizened tree the chakras ceased the prana free
The chaos of life giving way to divine and logical calm
Mystical beauty germinating from the monolithic servility in its last momentous glory
I see myself-
bound bloodied solid pallid
Serene death departs drenched in pristine white as the cheerless city breathes thru
the slow night.
Posted: 9th January 2012 8:59pm
Joined 18th Dec 2009 Forum Posts: 1701
When Hands Unlock
Will you please recall our tall , cheer my happiness enclosed within a single crystal cut tear. Remember my platinum eye that strived to enlive through jewels that pooled through curls of pearls that swirled to a twirl into an ocean lotion sky so fairytale and far so orbital so high. Will you all recall will you remember me when I go when I fall will you plant a tree. When I meet a sky of emerald will I salute an astute ancient army general. When I can no longer laugh into your eyes when I can no longer put my arm around you and capture summers golden sunshine skies. When I am gone when I ascend away always remember me , in my heyday the stones at your window aftershave upon a pillow remember me when you sit and breath all that glows. Extend your vision across rape seed hills of colourful collision watch the sun disappear into a valley of fantasy as night comes clear dont fear my sun down just light a waxed torch and sit beneath my tree and watch as I flicker around . When I have gone out far when I leave recall the string in the buttons you sewn on my sleeves hold on to my dream to be you must not forget all of me . My words strewn over pages my scruffy autograph my smile within a photograph all my images . When hands unlock and upon the door i knock dont forget me please plant a tree then our forests and fields will forever rock eternally.
I am who I wasn't and I was who I am not ,all I am is what you see and the past should be forgot
Posted: 9th January 2012 9:23pm
Joined 31st Dec 2011 Forum Posts: 134
"What Does God Have Planned for Me?"
Time goes by too slow for me As the clock ticks I flow aimlessly In my own mind... In my own world... I wonder what does God have planned for me?
Am I to live With this sickness inside me? Forever will it be That this sadness will plague me? No peace fills my mind Don't think I'll ever find True happiness... What does God have planned for me? To just sit and wait? All I do is contemplate In my deep depression I feel I need to go to confession To tell my father That I can't wait any longer...
Am I to continue to hate Myself because I am afraid? All the options I had I made too late And every night I pray I wake up in the morning still sad Because nothing still hasn't changed... What does God have planned for me? I just sit and wait All I do is contemplate In my regression I feel there's no other option But to tell my father That I won't wait any longer...
As the clock ticks I flow aimlessly In my own mind... In my own world... Time goes by too slow for me As I continue to wonder What does God have planned for me?
By Tara M. AKA LyricalLady
Smile, wave, then flip them the bird...;)
Posted: 9th January 2012 10:20pm
Edited: 9th January 2012 10:37pm
Guardian of Shadows
Joined 25th Aug 2011 Forum Posts: 15125
I really should not But I will Fly from this building tonight It will be such a thrill Down below I see the lights Little things, miniatures Rushing cars and streetlights People rushing by with their dreams Ambitions and achievements Triumphs and accomplishments
I have none of those I am a non-entity I do not exist I am nothing I am no one And this little shred of humanity Should be destroyed
I stand poised on this ledge Looking down before I fly I think about what led me to this little flight A journey of discovery A lifetime of knowing That I want to end tonight Innocence lost A dream shattered Unwanted knowledge gained
My mother wished I was scrapped from her womb She told me that one day And in an instance wished she did not My father wished I was a boy And ignored me when I was not My siblings hated me For being just me My lovers used me And discarded me when it was over I am used merchandise
Tonight I reached the zenith Of my hurt When you I love said goodbye In this letter in my hand The wind they sing a lullaby The cold air like gentle arms Engulf me lovingly, freezing me I need to go I am flying now See you in my dreams
Ephesians 2:8-9 :For by grace are ye saved through faith not of works lest any man should boast.
Posted: 10th January 2012 00:20am
Joined 6th Apr 2011 Forum Posts: 2026
A spark tingles through my body as I touch the outlet I slow down The trembling starts the shaking comes next My hair stands up and then the burn mists it’s way in I try to let go but the physical addiction stops me My mind says HELL NO but my body doesn’t reply And then my memory says goodbye Then HELP!!!! becomes HAFGB:ISHFJWRJESOHSR:?!>!\ My words are scrambled My thoughts are next And then my eyes pop out of my head I fall to the floor my legs give way and I passed away
Posted: 10th January 2012 00:40am
Joined 12th Apr 2011 Forum Posts: 164
Let Me Go
I think about how much I hate my life as I, sit in the tub pulling out my razor, grab my parents gun, checking to see if it’s loaded, open up my window and peer at the street, 50 feet below, step on the chair, slipping the noose around my neck. I think about you and I can’t breathe I’m so pissed. I loved you and you lied. Let me do this. Let me go I cry as the razor bites my wrist, red pooling into the tub. Let me go I whisper as I put the gun to my head, pulling the trigger. Let me go I scream as I spread my arms out and jump. Let me go I mumble as I kick the chair out from under me, the rope cutting my breath off, snapping my neck. Don’t cry over me. Let me go. Let, me, go.
Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies.- (Voldemort) J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Posted: 10th January 2012 4:33am
Fire of Insight
Joined 14th Nov 2011 Forum Posts: 596
Here I stand lake side in the dark of night
Floating reflection of me back dropped by moonlight
The color has slowly faded from these eyes
Blood dripping over my eyelids falling down the sides
Blurred vision and the world is still so innocent
Caught up in its own beauty, terrible witness
To the dyeing boy alone with bleeding wrists
Sad eyes blink one last time, leaving one image
Tears falling to her soft pink lips
Whispering I love you, I love you so don’t do this
What a beautiful vision, time for me to stop wishing
All strength has bleed from this tireless body
Falling over becoming one with my reflection
Sinking deep, I have lost all connection
Not to be saved is truly a blessing
As the lake calms, returns the moons reflection
Colored in red, the grave of a suicidal affection
Mastered the storm and stopped storming the weather.
Posted: 10th January 2012 5:29am
Edited: 10th January 2012 5:30am
I used to believe there was no such thing as a bad day.
And today, I sit at the park on the bonnet of my car under the perfect tree.
The wife ran away with
my Rope .
-x- Written by AliP
Posted: 10th January 2012 6:03am
Edited: 10th January 2012 6:22am - edited 3 times
I leave behind my eyes eyes that only saw fairy tales
I leave behind my hair hair that hungered for a lovers hands to run through it
I leave behind my skin skin that yearned to be caressed
I leave behind my smile of which was so bright when I thought of better days
I leave behind my hands hands that reached out and were never taken
But I cant leave behind my heart because the damage is far more than can be repaired
And I cant leave my strength because I have lost it all
I cant do this anymore
Posted: 10th January 2012 8:29am
Fire of Insight
Joined 6th Dec 2011 Forum Posts: 572
Death Note by ~UnleashedHeathen
I don't want to kill myself with a gun Because to me that would seem petty Nor do I want to slit my wrists like an 'emo' - emotional fake, I say- I don't want to give you the satisfaction that you so secretly want
I can see it in your face. I can smell your fear Of " Will it be me first, or her; doing what should have been done long ago" Let's face it. Everyone gets lost in there own version of reality.
I'm not going to pretend that I was depressed Because I know that the outcome I presumed would be irrational It would be insane to think that you would be happy because you got what you desired.
I didn't kill myself. I didn't die unexpectedly. I just disappeared where I can see you and everything you do. Because you set me free, I can see the happiness you so greedily hid.
You wanna fly? You've gotta give up the shit that weighs you down.
Posted: 10th January 2012 9:02am
Fire of Insight
Joined 24th Nov 2011 Forum Posts: 241
I find myself tensed hopeless and frightened
I dont want to do it but I cannot stop
Behind me my empty life of stress How can I go on Living as a shadow of myself
I dont want to do it But I cannot stop
I think of all those I love I know this will hurt But its time to fuck the world
Shivering till this long night's gone Enter a blissful peace in the opening dawn
I dont want to do it I love being around my peeps and many other things I'd miss But I cant stick around for any of this
Completely ill I rush for the pills Jittery,teary but determined
I cant stop....
No Not now I've come this far no turning back Pop the pills Fuck how it feels Childhood memories flash through my eyes Gate of paradise Good night cruel life As for my dear wife Think not less of me
Posted: 10th January 2012 3:27pm
Edited: 20th January 2012 5:24am - edited 3 times
Joined 17th Nov 2011 Forum Posts: 1590
The suffocating grasp of your claws has made my spirit too numb to feel the persecuting heartache the torturing turmoil and conflicting sorrow of all my failures
The ferocious slashing of your teeth has made my skin too thick to feel the blistering anguish the flaming grief and blazing torment of all my disappointments
The poisonous howl of your rage has made my ears too deaf to hear the degrading screeching the sickening shrieking and agonizing squalling of all your disapproval's
Existing with you is a slow suicide
I have nothing to continue for, for I have no one to continue with
I have not anything, for I have nothing
I have not anyone, for I have no one
I am not anything, for I am nothing
I can't tell if it is killing me, or making me stronger =/
Posted: 10th January 2012 7:15pm
Fire of Insight
Joined 5th Dec 2011 Forum Posts: 219
THE END OF ME. Little drop of crimson, Fall from the wound. Forget your brothers and sisters, They will follow. Run down my hands, like warm drops of sunlight, Drip to the floor, And when you hit the ground, a pool will follow. and that, my friends, Was the end of me.
Posted: 10th January 2012 9:54pm
Joined 20th Dec 2011 Forum Posts: 18
A Madman's Broken Heart
I am what I am.. Should I apologize for it?
'Cause I'm still the same guy that YOU fell in love with.
You said you wouldn't hurt me, right from the start.
But that was the first thing you did. Now look at my heart!
Bleeding and beating to the rhythm of your name!
This pain I'm enduring is driving me insane!
More than usual! I almost want to cry!
Maybe laugh!..No wait!.. I think I want to die!
Hold on! Listen! I hear something in my head!
Never mind it's gone.. Maybe I'm already dead.
'Cause nothing seems to function Right.
And I'm still here, but you're out of sight.
Honestly! I don't know what to do!
Someone please tell me! I beg of you!
All I do is stare at my heart lying on the floor.
Broken into pieces, in a puddle of gore.
Can't you see that I'm on my knees?!
Someone!! Anyone!!! HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!
Oh wait. You can't see. These are just written words.
Is what I do a gift? A Blessing or a Curse?
Maritza!!! Can you hear me? Did i scare you my dear?
Is it me that you hate? Or my poems that you fear?
Well I guess it doesn't matter. It's already too late.
Thank you my love, for sealing my fate.
I'm going to be honest. I'm not going to lie.
I'm not good with break ups, or at saying goodbyes.
So here is my poem that I'm writing for you.
Now before I pull this trigger, I just want to say... I LOVE YOU...