Double posting because I had a migraine yesterday and was unable to post.
Stabbing pain Canít think Want to die Physically can not move But can not get comfortable Trying to stay calm Sleep Not do anything to make it worse Not being productive Knowing I have a lot to do But not being able to do anything Feeling like Iím wasting time No energy Shooting pain Trying to ignore all the noise Finally falling into a deep sleep Waking up and still being in pain Feeling it all over again
Posted: 15th April 2021 1:45pm
Edited: 15th April 2021 5:38pm - edited 3 times
Tyrant of Words
Joined 23rd Nov 2013 Forum Posts: 1582
15/30 The Missing Left Shoe
Nonsensical things mentally ill people do bipolar roller coaster on any given day some unravel become unhinged others go on a month long drinking binge
Some create a scene of deep depression others take people hostage in their convoluted conversations some get frantic, losing stuff in their hands others plot murder an hatch a redonkulous plan
Some overwhelm crowding all personal space others would rather be absconded in a quiet place some like to rage causing problems all day long others sit on the pity pot singing swans song
Iím not sure if all the above applies to me but iím willing to bet that they do Iíve walked many days in my life one step at a time In my bipolar shoes
live and let live
Posted: 15th April 2021 2:29pm
Tyrant of Words
Joined 11th Apr 2015 Forum Posts: 10502
( 15/30 )
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Part II: Arc of the Covenant † †
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Third Quarter Waningó half of a half-portion; the whole of her profile choreographically submerging beneath a black satin duvet
Hard astrological angle relinquishing control: meditation, forest bathing sound healing all realign Spiritual equilibrium
Belief becomes a warrior steadfast within its garret of magnetism, attracting our seeded offerings as tangible formations
United energies combine into one magnet of return: That which is like unto itself is drawnó
so says the Law . . .
Proprio Vos Sanguine Pasco. ( Alternate writings under three additional accounts: Ex-Machina, Agent Starling, TwoSpirit )
Posted: 15th April 2021 3:23pm
Fire of Insight
Joined 8th Jan 2017 Forum Posts: 85
Thinking of hot summer days Back home with my family Blue skies and green grass and warm air Hearing the birds chirp Working in the garden Playing with my dog Watching my tortoise venture around the yard Laying on a chair cushion on my deck Soaking up the sun Not caring about anything Just enjoying the moment Living my life the way I want
Posted: 15th April 2021 3:33pm
Fire of Insight
Joined 8th July 2019 Forum Posts: 490
so much of this experience preciously temporal is wasted on becoming invulnerable, making ourselves untouchable until we find that, in the space one hair past halfway, we canít feel a thing
Not present nor absent, impending turns to bygone on a dime
talking sense into our souls, we repetitiously remind our frailty that we donít care ~ until one moment past the midpoint, where we realize we actually donít
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Posted: 15th April 2021 4:14pm
Joined 22nd July 2019 Forum Posts: 61
The Great Mystery
Wishing I wasnít curious, lately makes me wonder all the more what it might be like.
Heaven, that is. The after life. A great debate among the living.
White puffy clouds gently rolling by with a Saint on each one? Cerulean sky as far as the eye can see? Pearly gates, in tasteful Mikimoto pearls?
Iíd like my heaven to look like that. With visits from loved ones who have braved the passage before me.
Iíd also like my heaven to envelope me in a baptism and release from all the hurt and disappointment I harbored too religiously on earth.
A mystery no more. My Heaven.
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Posted: 15th April 2021 5:39pm
Joined 4th Dec 2018 Forum Posts: 1316
#15 of 30
Tasted so much pain With bloody lips Struggling within certain feelings Always on borrowed breath Anotger breakdown dead ahead
Pushing against deacending darkness Sleeping giant awakens Only time will tell If survival instincts Are enough again
One step closer To wilder nightmares Sanity's cutting it fine Every situation different Newer view of suffering
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Posted: 15th April 2021 7:38pm
Edited: 15th April 2021 7:39pm
Guardian of Shadows
Joined 27th Feb 2014 Forum Posts: 512
(15 of 30óOfficial DUP NaPo/GloPoWrimo2021)
sonnets among my scribbles
♪seaSong♪ sonnet #15
i see the sea wave at the waving palms, and hear the air sing with a single voice the songs of many waters, where rejoice in maritime panache their nature psalms. how light the light upon my arm! no harm beyond the sands that granulate, amazed, when sunset plays last music, trumpets raised to serenade the evening's blushing charm. sea secrets cease to broker broken hearts when salty seasons pull the newborn moon out of the orbit of her silk cocoon, as dancing stars reveal their private parts.
behold the open sea: what life, what death, what mysteries for man recess beneath!
When the fingers of fatigue grasp at you like tentacles drag your spirits to its knees
Suck your muse the strenght to write struggle where you used to cruise
Refresh yourself with citrus lines cut the fruit and take a slice squeeze each drop
Compress the blood orange its hemoglobin sprite the will redden like a magic pill
Lemon zest from grater fall like inspiration, not a wall breaking through shortfalls
A fresh green lime be the harbinger of brighter times bring power in new concepts
Take the grapefruit, half it now scoop its flesh, its segments shout the weary soul now refreshed
Blushing strawberry the profiled heart absorb the glow its sweetness tart sip these all, for that invest
Posted: 15th April 2021 8:30pm
Guardian of Shadows
Joined 10th Oct 2009 Forum Posts: 6575
#15. April 15th.
Grond! The Hammer of the Underworld That had sought to fell the —oldor's High King And rent great holes in the world. Grond! The weapon welded of the Dark Lord The great Warhammer to break the earth apart When he chose to battle abroad Grond! The Ram to break the gate of man To bring the fall and ruin of Minas Tirith As befit Sauron's great plan. Grond! An engine to herald the fall Drawn by beasts and orcs and swung by mountain trolls Heralding doom to one and all. Grond!
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Posted: 15th April 2021 9:13pm
Edited: 15th April 2021 10:56pm
Tyrant of Words
Joined 11th July 2012 Forum Posts: 1297
In a State of Grace
ďSpin the wheelĒ the professor brightly said So I did and went back to nineteen ninety-one To days of youth and paths I once feared to tread To a time when passion seemed to weigh a ton
I smiled reliving the moments I once treasured For the times I sighed and cried with a heavy heart For the formative years when I felt the pressure Through a depression I hid while playing the part
But I kept it hidden below the undergrowth Like secrets in the deepest recesses of the soul It grew roots to the core and swore an oath Not knowing one day it would make me whole
I found it again through a ghost of a chance With the rush I felt and gave way to chase And for me, itís been the perfect romance While working to stay in a state of grace
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Posted: 15th April 2021 10:54pm
Joined 25th Sep 2019 Forum Posts: 75
15 of 30
It will be dawning from your darkest hours, The inspiration of your accumulation. Or should I say, The saving grace of your damnation. If that be, your inclination. The seed you sow, The way you witness The experience Of this life so. Don't, Be kept from living by a threat. I ask you, Look inside. Deeper than the toil, Deeper than the trial, Deeper than that, Of your own tale. To all the smiles you've shared, That hope prepared, And strength bestowed, To take you far from here, Wherever here maybe, Whenever now, Befits the moment, You've called. You'll have the strength to rise, Before the dust left of this life. Lays claims to its place With the wind, In the earth. That last breath Of that old life, Is the first breath You'll draw And realise..
Posted: 16th April 2021 00:17am
Joined 30th June 2016 Forum Posts: 456
Ode To Night V
Dream with me, wildest night; come alive with my closing eyes to watch with me what can be in a world were it only as free as a silken scarf upon a swift breeze. Raise me high to look down upon the many muted colors you create and the deeper hues of fading light and, shadowed by your rising height, I view you above, shimmering and full of playful delight. Dream with me, wildest night.
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'I am not mad' -Salvador Dali
Posted: 16th April 2021 00:30am
Edited: 16th April 2021 00:40am
Joined 29th Mar 2017 Forum Posts: 1018
I wonder what moment Iíll realize Iím not in love.
It could be that Iím fixing a hole in my favorite jeans and you donít cross my mind. BecauseÖ why would you cross my mind while Iím mending my favorite jeans?
Iíd have you anytime you wear those damn pants.
Or I hear some guy yell ďHoney Pie,Ē as his girl struts into the bar and I donít immediately think of the two of us.
If I fell, would you catch me? Laughing over almost empty bourbon glasses and risking a day in the life.
I drive my car seeking forever memory loss because maybe Iíll forget that across the universe someone thinks my kaleidoscope eyes are the end of the line.
Do you think if yesterday repeats itself that I can convince myself to let it be?
Let you walk away while I act naturally, but really Iím dying for you to hold me close.
Maybe, maybe Iím amazed that all my memory, all my loving is wrapped up in you.
Anyway, Iíve just seen a face and I think I realize.
I realize, Ms Grace
P.S. I love you.
**And the blackbird plays but a boxwood flute, but I love him best of all.**
Posted: 16th April 2021 2:06am
Edited: 16th April 2021 2:12am - edited 2 times
Joined 29th July 2018 Forum Posts: 552
Rings of Sadness
Tragedy has become a rolling constant, forming rings of sadness around my aura.
I'm begging timeó
You can tell me to stay grounded in today's temperate lacerations, but too much keeps happening. Paper cuts feel like death is considering things...
listen for the lullaby, whispered during reticent slumber.
ďCreation which cannot express itself becomes madness" ~Anais Nin