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kathyrivers
kathyrivers
Kathy Rivers
Twisted Dreamer
United States
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Joined 23rd Jan 2020
Forum Posts: 24

Too Late Suicide

I slit both wrists
and pray to God I drain slowly.
feel every vein in me
pump blood out of my body.
No fight left in me,
No reason to be,
So this is my last story.
I sit here,
legs stretched out in front of me
thinking of what life should be.
I'll use this forum of DU Poetry
To leave a piece of me.

I feel okay,
Just numb around wrist and the thumb.
My hearts beating a little fast
but nothing to be alarmed.

I've tried and failed and failed and tried, failed again
I'm just tired....
life hasn't been that good to me i must admit
It's gotten the best of me.

My head's feeling a little dizzy,
bare with me.

thoughts of all the things i should do instead of this,
Fuck my wrists hurt.

I took a minute to read
DUP's inspiring poems
and I must admit I'm inspired.

God, I feel so weak right now.

I've had a change of mind
I want to live
I want to try and see how best to turn my life around.
 
My eyes are shutting down.

IF yOu ArE rEaDinG tHiS nOw Just KnoW ThAt I
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Written by ClassyBird
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ClassyBird said:

"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"


BRAVO!!!!! a beautifully haunting and heartbreaking poem!! i only hope you are okay tho....

Gg78
Gg78
Tyrant of Words
United States
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Joined 5th Mar 2011
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Wow I love it

Gg78
Gg78
Tyrant of Words
United States
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You canít air your dirty thoughts, they will condemn the mind that has no voice
but takes over your life
will drive you insane
their answer
50mg before bed

Just wanted to say hi to everyone
I miss this place
Still wish this was an app

Crazontheinside
Crazontheinside
JoannaMcDonald
Lost Thinker
Canada
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Joined 5th Feb 2020
Forum Posts: 4

Bi-Polar - Through the eyes of a complex Mind

ďYour a living performance trying out for a part, while inside youíre broken and falling apart. Mind is clouded with judgement...reality strikes. Lifes an emotional rollercoaster ride, your views are turning into shades of black and white.Ē † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † †

 † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † †Daily struggles of pain, weakness a curse.
This is me, myself, and I.
Scars of pain, torture, neglect,
has given me this complex mind.
 
As calm as the sky
to darkest of night,
seems nothing I do
is ever right.
 
Dark as a prison
Lost in a storm
Thoughts enter like bullets
Minds tattered and torn

I lose all my breath.
As I lay my head, I rest.
All hope lies in myself,
Lost days ahead
 
On days I know will fall
to ashes for all to see
I dread the path to follow
As its a trip of anxiety
 
At times I am uplifting,
feeling alive and well.
I think, could I be better?
For only time can tell.
 
But time can never stop
Its never been my friend
Itís a burden that you carry
Grim thoughts that will not end
 
DistructionÖ chaos
Will to never surrender
Eternal pain, restless slumber
insidious like cancer
 
Rollercoaster of endless emotions
Too many painful memories
Takes the light from my darkness
Brings me a smile of uncertainty
 
Brain is altered,
All you want is to be free,
But your full of flaws beyond repair,
And a burden to all you meet.
 
My emotions unbalanced,
My tears will pour
Happiness is a euphoric high
Im the rage in a storm
 
I donít break I shatter
feelings are silicone like glass
easily I will break
Just breathe, this too shall pass

These chains grip my neck,
heads lost at sea.
soul is lost,
leaving only anxiety.
 
Wrong turn along the way,
minds out to lunch,
body so tired
could sleep for a month.
 
No memory no knowledge,
of the people around me.
Other days, on top of the clouds,
all I think of isÖparty.
 
Paranoid starts,
Always feeling left out.
Many moments I hideaway,
shutting everyone out.
 
Friends gone
relationships... faster.
Life is a game
with my difficulty on master.
 
Canít see life
as itís easy for others,
as most of it starts
Forever searching for the answers
 
 
So, ask a question,
Iíll respond to the answer.
Iím not joking...confused yet?
Cause, thatís nothin.
 
I have medicine daily,
And take parts of you.
Is it normal to feel numb, cold, passion gone?
Minds a regular day at the zoo.
 
Some days this feeling,
keep pricking my skin,
With overloaded thoughts,
seems I canít ever win.
 
My head is left spinning,
Too much darkness in my head.
Drown in worry as to why your friends,
would say what they said.
 
Deceived by the whispers,
they think you donít see it.
Emotional, alone, infected with burden,
A failure, you surrender and quit.
 
If I needed attention,
why isolated myself inside?
Get robbed of sleep and hunger,
living a battle to fight suicide.
 
next the hospital
here I go.
Hide that deep sadness
but they already know.

Another dose of pills,
confused you freak out.
You've seen every doctor,
they donít care what you're about.

when your timeís done,
You have no one to call.
Youíre back at square one
feeling nothing at all.

Not too long before
you meet the man of your dreams,
Skeptical at first
scared tremendously.

eleven years and counting,
More decades to treasure.
But everyone knows...
Nothing lasts forever.

When Iím down and out
he puts that smile back on my face,
he knows how to get me
out of my dark place.

Happy, for he gives me hope.
Now I have a place to call home,
now I have a way to heal.
As I write it in a poem

all I need is a pad of paper,
and my trusty good pen.
Then turn on inspiring music,
By my favorite artist...Eminem.

I may not believe in god
but I have my own reasons,
itís not like the days
where you went to trial for treason.

Iím not saying, donít believe
if it helps then please do.
Hold on to it, cherish it.
Iím asking you to.

Trust me the older you get,
the harder it is living with an illness like this.
You need support, hope, and love
to help find eternal bliss.

On the days that grow darker,
when the light seems itís not there,
I want you to know,
many relate and do care.

If youíre alone and need a friend
go to the pound, they need love just like you.
I have two, couldnít live without them,
They listen, a friend and do anything for you.

The point Iím trying to make
youíre not alone...have no worries.
I still struggle each day,
with my love in my thirties.

Joanna Ryan-McDonald
Written by Crazontheinside (JoannaMcDonald)
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Silverotter65
Silverotter65
Drew1103
Lost Thinker
United Kingdom
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Joined 13th Feb 2020
Forum Posts: 9

As I Walk

Shadows may come and shadows may go,
But I know for sure what I need to sow,
I will reach for His word which is truth and the light,
As I walk in the shadows, straight into the fight.
With the shield of His Spirit I shall do what is right!
I will lift up His banner all shining and bright,
And all of God's children, shall join in His glorious light,
Hand in hand we shall rise up as One,
A Nation for God, under His Son.

Drew Balfour © 2019

Written by Silverotter65 (Drew1103)
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Crazontheinside
Crazontheinside
JoannaMcDonald
Lost Thinker
Canada
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Joined 5th Feb 2020
Forum Posts: 4

Bi-Polar - Through the eyes of a complex Mind

ďYour a living performance trying out for a part, while inside youíre broken and falling apart. Mind is clouded with judgement...reality strikes. Lifes an emotional rollercoaster ride, your views are turning into shades of black and white.Ē † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † †

 † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † † †Daily struggles of pain, weakness a curse.
This is me, myself, and I.
Scars of pain, torture, neglect,
has given me this complex mind.
 
As calm as the sky
to darkest of night,
seems nothing I do
is ever right.
 
Dark as a prison
Lost in a storm
Thoughts enter like bullets
Minds tattered and torn

I lose all my breath.
As I lay my head, I rest.
All hope lies in myself,
Lost days ahead
 
On days I know will fall
to ashes for all to see
I dread the path to follow
As its a trip of anxiety
 
At times I am uplifting,
feeling alive and well.
I think, could I be better?
For only time can tell.
 
But time can never stop
Its never been my friend
Itís a burden that you carry
Grim thoughts that will not end
 
DistructionÖ chaos
Will to never surrender
Eternal pain, restless slumber
insidious like cancer
 
Rollercoaster of endless emotions
Too many painful memories
Takes the light from my darkness
Brings me a smile of uncertainty
 
Brain is altered,
All you want is to be free,
But your full of flaws beyond repair,
And a burden to all you meet.
 
My emotions unbalanced,
My tears will pour
Happiness is a euphoric high
Im the rage in a storm
 
I donít break I shatter
feelings are silicone like glass
easily I will break
Just breathe, this too shall pass

These chains grip my neck,
heads lost at sea.
soul is lost,
leaving only anxiety.
 
Wrong turn along the way,
minds out to lunch,
body so tired
could sleep for a month.
 
No memory no knowledge,
of the people around me.
Other days, on top of the clouds,
all I think of isÖparty.
 
Paranoid starts,
Always feeling left out.
Many moments I hideaway,
shutting everyone out.
 
Friends gone
relationships... faster.
Life is a game
with my difficulty on master.
 
Canít see life
as itís easy for others,
as most of it starts
Forever searching for the answers
 
 
So, ask a question,
Iíll respond to the answer.
Iím not joking...confused yet?
Cause, thatís nothin.
 
I have medicine daily,
And take parts of you.
Is it normal to feel numb, cold, passion gone?
Minds a regular day at the zoo.
 
Some days this feeling,
keep pricking my skin,
With overloaded thoughts,
seems I canít ever win.
 
My head is left spinning,
Too much darkness in my head.
Drown in worry as to why your friends,
would say what they said.
 
Deceived by the whispers,
they think you donít see it.
Emotional, alone, infected with burden,
A failure, you surrender and quit.
 
If I needed attention,
why isolated myself inside?
Get robbed of sleep and hunger,
living a battle to fight suicide.
 
next the hospital
here I go.
Hide that deep sadness
but they already know.

Another dose of pills,
confused you freak out.
You've seen every doctor,
they donít care what you're about.

when your timeís done,
You have no one to call.
Youíre back at square one
feeling nothing at all.

Not too long before
you meet the man of your dreams,
Skeptical at first
scared tremendously.

eleven years and counting,
More decades to treasure.
But everyone knows...
Nothing lasts forever.

When Iím down and out
he puts that smile back on my face,
he knows how to get me
out of my dark place.

Happy, for he gives me hope.
Now I have a place to call home,
now I have a way to heal.
As I write it in a poem

all I need is a pad of paper,
and my trusty good pen.
Then turn on inspiring music,
By my favorite artist...Eminem.

I may not believe in god
but I have my own reasons,
itís not like the days
where you went to trial for treason.

Iím not saying, donít believe
if it helps then please do.
Hold on to it, cherish it.
Iím asking you to.

Trust me the older you get,
the harder it is living with an illness like this.
You need support, hope, and love
to help find eternal bliss.

On the days that grow darker,
when the light seems itís not there,
I want you to know,
many relate and do care.

If youíre alone and need a friend
go to the pound, they need love just like you.
I have two, couldnít live without them,
They listen, a friend and do anything for you.

The point Iím trying to make
youíre not alone...have no worries.
I still struggle each day,
with my love in my thirties.

Joanna Ryan-McDonald
Written by Crazontheinside (JoannaMcDonald)
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Rubiksmind91
Rubiksmind91
Courtney emm
Lost Thinker
United States
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Joined 14th Oct 2018
Forum Posts: 8

Dark but devine

Like a  noose around my neck, it constricts every breath.
And I hang like a wreck in the black eyes of death.
I must have dropped my purpose, maybe it lingers where I fell.
Or is it just below the surface in my version of hell?
I'm frightened for the ending, so I would never close the book.
So till then I'm pending, as I sway from this hook.
I hate the truth in this ink, for it holds depth beyond belief.
And at times I even think it's my only real relief.
Why can't I be conent? Make the broken pieces fit?
There's nothing more that I resent, as I remember to forget.
Should I hang here in suspense, what's a pulse without a brain?
I lack self defense, and it drives me insane.
I envy your peace, for I'm depleted of my own.
As if pain has signed a lease, this intruder calls me 'home'.
You can't destroy what's not created, so I guess that I'll be fine.
In fact I should have waited, for something more devine.
Written by Rubiksmind91 (Courtney emm)
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Heart_symphony
Heart_symphony
Twisted Dreamer
Canada
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Joined 17th Jan 2018
Forum Posts: 60

My Mother

My home has been scattered
In different houses
In different countries
My mother was the only person at my side

My home was in the blue eyes
Of my mother
Before she lost her mind

The different places
Always felt like home
When Iíd crawl into her bed

But my home had a leak
Her eyes would rain down
On my cheeks

My young mind was confused
Iíd hold her tightly
And say ďplease donít cry, I love youĒ

Every night Iíd listen to her sobs
My heart wrenching
I felt useless because I was young

When I grew older
Something in her changed
The blue from her eyes drained

Sheíd stare off at nothing
While I yelled and cried
Searching desperately for her mind

Her blue eyes
Have cried so many tears
They are now glazed over

My mother
She speaks from a distance
Her warmth has gone cold

In all the different countries and houses
My mother was all I had
But now her mind has shattered
And now my home is scattered
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Heart_symphony
Heart_symphony
Twisted Dreamer
Canada
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Joined 17th Jan 2018
Forum Posts: 60

In every moment of everyday

Sitting alone in a car park
Late at night
Rain on the windows
The droplets glistening
A soft glow of streetlights
A muted fuzz in the air
These thoughts plague me

You were it to me
The only thing I saw
But when I was close to you
I felt alone

I was alone because you did not understand or care
You kept demanding MORE
But youíd already taken everything
What was left?
My personality withered away under your pressure

What is there left to say
When you ripped apart my insides
Destroying everything I am
Causing pain that will haunt me for the rest of my life

Thereís nothing to say
Thereís nothing that will make the hurt go away
When you were here youíd cut through me everyday
A constant headache demanding appeasement
Youíd wear me down and take what you wanted

But it wasnít enough
It was never enough
You always had to have more
More, more, more
It didnít matter the cost
My life, my soul, my future
You had to have it all

My heart throbbing violently
You took it all
Now youíre gone
And I sit alone in desolate car parks
Humming that our youth is almost gone
Thinking about everything that went wrong

Did you remember that it was my birthday
Yesterday?
Youíve been gone for so long
And in every moment of everyday you taint my life
A shadow that bleeds
through the days
Painting the world black and grey
Written by Heart_symphony
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