My Last Note to You
If you are reading this note you are holding now, then that means the difficult goodbye
And my final hour has come. I know this is going to be it. Everything in my mind, soul,
Heart and body has given up the fight to keep living here, but when you look to the sky
I will never be too far away for you to feel my lingering presence. The gaping bullet hole
Within my chest cannot be repaired or fixed again. Just know that I have already forgiven
The people who hurt me and I have already made my amends with those I hurt. The pain
Will eventually subside and disappear. That is all I want for you. It is like you have driven
Yourself to the very edge, but you cannot jump. When you close your eyes I am in the rain
Drops against your cheek. When you watch every sunrise and sunset with careful eyes I am
There too. Sometimes you may wish for the world to burn because you may miss my laugh
Or smile, but someday you will find someone wanting to give you love again and will slam
Against you like a storm on the horizon. You stay stuck on old memories like a photograph
You keep in the attic, but you will also make new memories to last a lifetime. It is like you
Will be missing me, but this is my way of telling you to move on because I will not be there,
But there is someone or something else to live for. Always travel the world. Keep making too
Many mistakes to remember. Meet new people and discover new passions. Darling, I swear
To you that although this is it for me, your life is far from over just because I am gone. We
Are all covered in imperfections and scars. Your heart line is far from being flat or lifeless.
Whether I am right there beside you or underneath the dirt below your feet I can still see
That your rooted tree will keep growing and blossoming. It may be bare naked or leafless
Like the first days of winter. Someday you will laugh, smile and be happy again. I hope
That you will recall that although we made countless errors and missteps, I never regret
The days in which I loved you the most. I never regret the moment I handed you the rope
And key to my heart. This is my way of having my voice play like your favorite cassette.
No matter where we are in this universe, I know we will find each other someday in our
Next lifetime because that is the place where we will get that fresh beginning and start.
Your watery (and also my favorite shade of green) eyes will always search or devour
For a hidden meaning within these departing words. You will hold it next to your heart
So I can hear your heartbeat one last time. Your beautiful curls and face are imprinted
Into my memory. I could never forget you either, even if I tried. You are my fingerprint.
Written by eswaller
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