I don't want to die but I don't want to live. I am too tired to exist. But there are so many goals I have already achieved. I am in too deep. I'm too deep in this life to make it all go away with a single sweep of a knife. I've lived too long not to think I would be bored if I were gone. I've seen so many things without which I do not think I could live. I know so many things that I'm scared of what might be if my brain stopped working. But the thing is that the things I don't know are the things I truly want to know. All...
How can I possibly find the way that leads me back to love to life, when I can't even find a trail that takes me off this road of utter darkness? Despair is so thick, it suffocates all hope. Not one sliver of light pierces the canopy of my desolate forest.
I still hear your voice. It calls to me like siren song. Unquestioned, my heart obeys it's seductive command, Blindly, I'm running headlong into the Abyss.
Torrential rain. Pelting everything. Washing the sin from this land. Grime pasing from streams into rivers. Out to sea creating misery. Blackest pollution. Ugliest lies falling.. Contaminating. Eating away at the purist soul.
Heart disease. Flies massing. Maggots hatching . Recycling the filth. And so it will be. That your body will succumb. To decay and disaster. Nothing left the day after. All your words as nothing. Passing through just to rot away.
Furthering midnight's encore weeping souls from barren holes screaming banshees out of control clawing eyes in dark's insanity needing more to marinate seething hate to castigate down to their core of life's little seeds where the apple tree grows
In this dark cage of lies I'm dangerously trapped inside The butterflies have flown away No longer does this soul sway Anger, pain, hatred Now my heart is left damaged Deception, betrayal, lies were thrust upon Still a mask of happiness I put on Agony, depression , insanity I try to hide All the blames are killing me inside Lying dead, I stare at the gleaming stars Trapped...