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the sound of engines

it kills with each smile
to realise it will
ruin a lot to
heal everything.

i can taste depression on the
tip of my ears where he last
left whispers of
reassurance that try to work
but i gulp them down like
the drop of my heart
i can feel the sallow stabs return.

he is amazing too amazing
for me and my endless
migraines and seconds when i can't
accept that he's there because
i am too busy with things that
aren't
but haunt me.

i don't want to feel this way
but what if it takes me
needing to destroy myself and
break through shards of glass
like the super woman i once thought
i was
to see the happiness
i am starting to feel
but too weak to catch

because my ribs hurt and i curl up
trying to cry
and trying to
hold back tears.

Written by Celine (3ampoems)

Published on Feb 7 2010 at 23:36 CST. Read all poems by Celine
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Beautiful and sad

Written on 02/09/10 at 07:05:03 CST by Jack Heslop

Your poems are often variations on the themes of despair and depression, but each one comes across as startlingly original and profound. No small feat. A lovely piece, filled with some lovely expressions.

I particularly like

Written on 02/11/10 at 11:27:14 CST by pelle

the last stanza. I totally relate to that contradiction of both wanting the release of falling apart, crying your eyes out, yet simultaneously wanting to stay strong and hold it together.

Keep on keepin' on.

P.

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