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Just Make It Quick and Painless, I Can't Get Much More Numb Then This.

I’m getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach that this may be nearly over now,
and I’ve just about run out of options again.
Did you ever even hear my heart sinking?
I still do everyday.
I know I can’t really expect you to give me straight answers,
not as long as I’m afraid to ask these questions…
it just wouldn’t be fair.
Even in this very moment my heart beat is racing at a mile per minute.
Could you at least explain how or why?
I’m still struggling.
I’m at a loss for words and your silence is only leaving me breathless.
You’re like a drug I’ve never really done…
far enough away and almost losing your touch,
but I’ve been high like this for days now.
Could I get away with claiming I’m only addicted to the distance that’s between us?
Probably not,
but I already knew that somehow.
I can’t take anymore,
but what other amount would do this kind of damage?
How much is too much when I haven’t even had any at all?
I can see that you’ve had just about enough of me,
and I’m honestly glad you got your fill.
Now I’m left here alone,
self-inducing this sickness to purge you from my system,
hoping that forcing you out before you say it’s over will make goodbye hurt a little less.
We both know I’m just wasting vital fluids on our borrowed time.
I didn’t even have to ask for this overdose,
and I know you would’ve never offered anyways.
It just happened on its own I guess,
and there’s no antidote available to replace your crime.
So don’t stick around here for my sake,
you’re not doing me any favors.
I’m stronger then you think,
And I can take care of myself.
If you’re just stringing me along until you’re sure of someone else,
then do us both a favor and cut this cable.
Drop me off,
but rest assured I’ll survive this crash as it catches my fall.
I’ve had more then enough experience in being let down at this point in life.
It’s the noose,
Those damn chains around my neck which choke me as you drag us on.
I will admit though,
I kind of did ask for this in a way.
You were my favorite prescription,
A personal heroin,
after all.
I just wish I had read the warning label before it came to this,
I would’ve known it was the sobering up and coming down that would kill me in the end.
You left me all strung-out.
Now I’m checking myself into rehab before things get any worse.
Maybe all I really need is some clarity and a clean slate to start over new…
Or maybe I just need another reason to have a full blown relapse.
Just one last excuse.
I know that has time fades my heart may finally heal from this,
but I still hope you knew that my feelings for you would hang around forever.

Written by XKill Me RomanticallyX (pixxxiepoet)

Published 16th January 2010 4:00pm Read all poems by XKill Me RomanticallyX
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