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Longest Summer Ever

(Hook)
Longest days
I relapse every night
I climbed every mountain
I jumped from every height
Feel an end coming soon
A change in everything I thought I was becoming
The old me that passed
In the longest summer


(Verse 1)
Funny how things go
Moments pass like the weather
Funny how things turn out
When you expect them to be better
Ive changed the most
Without ever trying to
I discovered all truths
While being lied to
People I thought would stay
Through all times, seem to be missing
Seems that all my close friends
Are actually magicians
Disappearances grand
Pretenses unexpected
Let go of relations and dreams
That have been long neglected
Mindset so different now
The sun sets later and the moon stays only for a bit
I talked to God in my darkest hours
He told me to call it quits
Let shit go Jay
Take in positivity and good vibes
I been tired of living
But realized I've never been alive
I want my taste of heaven
Hell's getting lonely and tiresome
I been searching for a person to hold my heart
But I learned that I'm the one


(Hook)
Longest days
I relapse every night
I climbed every mountain
I jumped from every height
Feel an end coming soon
A change in everything I thought I was becoming
The old me that passed
In the longest summer


(Verse 2)
I fantasize about simple things
Like breathing easy and clear minds
I want to feel something deeper
But I fear I'll run out of time
Soon as I get involved
Things leave and end
I get tired of making mistakes
And people confuse it with intent
I'm foolish
Condone wrongdoing and brand it as my fault
Let people identify my flaws
While denying their own faults
My selflessness
Confused with plotting and manipulation
Have to brush away the false ideas
My actions are always creating
I lost love these days
Its been gone for weeks
Been around older folks
They say my soul's antique
I'm my greatest critic
Harder on myself than anyone else
So many reasons I behave the way I do
But so many of those reasons I could never tell
I'm trying to be so much better
I'm starting to believe I'm my own greatest asset
So little was driving me
I'm surprised I haven't crashed yet..


(Hook)
Longest days
I relapse every night
I climbed every mountain
I jumped from every height
Feel an end coming soon
A change in everything I thought I was becoming
The old me that passed
In the longest summer
Written by monaelisa (jadamonaewhite)
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