consume

base line
one sip
i notice every downfall
every aspect that brings me down
second sip
still feeling like shit
this reality
so real
yet so holographic
i need to escape it
3rd sip
feeling loose
not really a 3rd sip more like 5 now
5 to the head
its all going fuzzy
feeling that slight euphoria
creeping up on me
not caring about every downfall
what downfall
life is awesome
i feel like dancing
music
it sounds so sweet
i smile to myself
this is how it should feel all the time
this is what the truth is
but it is never constant
4th sip
more like 8
to the head
this is home
i don’t want it to end
on top of the world inside of my head
this is where i notice
all of the beauty
that i could care less about usually
numb warm
enveloped
b l i s s
it is a feeling i wish i could put into a bottle
and save for all of eternity
to return to and savor in
oh wait
well if only it were less harmful
i will sleep now.
peace
drifting
beauty
harmony