Deeper

Always ask myself what I do wrong
Everytime I write , it seems to be the same song
All this muscle but I ain't strong.
Look at me, look at me I'm all alone again.
Mama told me to ignore "them" but
I'm condemned to loneliness I don't
Even know what to do when I get friendzoned
I'm trying to reach for the gold, no
Company it's like this shit is bestowed on me.
All these thoughts untold is killing me every time
I see you with someone that shit devours me.
It's like I fall in this hole I can't escape from,
Reality is vivid I just want to run away not
To be seen today, in fact that's everyday.
There's a pain in my chest that shit weighs man
To disappear from society I just want to be wanted
Honestly, depression and anxiety got me digging
Even deeper, no vibrancy.
BTW this is strike three.