The Sex Monster Within

Look in to my eyes and tell me what you see. If you look close enough, you'll see a monster peering back at you with lidless eyes as sharp as knives, the antithesis of my external perfection, a sycophantic creature who preys on the weak minded, the frail of heart, the proverbial lost and those whom are emotionally destitute.

He's the perfect con man, my inner monster can use your ideals against you by convincing you to buy into something you dont need or give what you dont have, to pay for his own selfish desires. His weapon of choice is a silver tongue that shoots off sentences adorned with pretty words like bullets being fired from a machine gun with a nervous trigger finger, aimed straight at the heart.

The monster is an equal opportunist for he hates everyone all the same. The prospect of happiness burns him like hot white light but dwells in self hate for we all are at home with what we know best. He only loves himself, finding grace by making those around him feel worse. Women fall like dry leaves in his wake, crying rivers of tears made of anguish.

The monster loves to fuck women who worship him on a bed made out of lies and soft pillows made of empty promises of a better future that will never manifest. Each casualty, a lamb sacrifced on my decadent altar of self worship that exists inside the inner sanctum of my mind.

He is a hedonist. A self serving parasite whose only goal in life is the next fuck, the next vice, the next pleasure. All made possible on the backs of the weak willed and those who couldnt defend themselves from his hypnotic ways.

My inner monster is the perfect storm, magnificent to spy from a far when it afflicts someone else but when you find yourself at the center of it's eye, you'll find that this storm is paranormal in nature;  fueled by hate, regret and a taste for anarchy, with a shade of sadness all flowing clockwise, synergistically forming an emotionally violent hurricane that defecates lightning and rains sorrow on whoever is unlucky enough to be in the vicinity.

Now take a step back and look at me again. Ill tell you what you see. Im pretty fucking ugly inside.