Slipping Away

ALL I HAVE IS THE MEMORIES OF THE PAST.
EVERYBODY HATES ME.
I WISH THEY DIDN'T HATE ME.
HATE IS HIGHLY CONTAGIOUS.
THEY SAY FAMILY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE.
I HAVE BEGGED FOR THEIR FORGIVENESS.
AND THEY REFUSE TO SHOW MERCY.
TO FORGIVE ME.
FORGIVE LARRY,ISN'T ON THEIR MINDS.
EVERYBODY.......
OH FUCK IT.
THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.
I HAVE LET MYSELF DOWN.

I'M IN ALOT OF TROUBLE.
I DON'T HAVE THE STRENGTH OR THE COURAGE TO GO ON LIKE THIS.
AND EVEN IF I DID.
I WOULDN'T WANT TO.
EVERYDAY I GET A LITTLE MORE DEPRESSED.
I GET A LITTLE MORE DESPERATE.
A LITTLE MORE WRECKED TO SHIT.
SELFISH DREAMS.
I'M ALL I GOT AND THAT AIN'T MUCH.
I'VE FELT THIS WAY MANY TIMES BEFORE.
I'M SPEAKING ON SERIOUS,MAJOR LEAGUE DEPRESSION.
I CAN'T SLEEP.
I POP PILLS BUT THEY ONLY LAST A FEW HOURS.
THEN I'M UP PACING AT 4 IN THE MORNING.
I NEED HELP.
I'M IN THE FUCKIN' DUMPER.
GETTING OLDER,RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
DON'T KNOW WHAT MY GOD GIVEN TALENT IS.
NO IDEA.
ALL I KNOW FOR A FACT IS THAT MY MIND IS SINKING INTO CATATONIA.
ALL I AM.
ALL I HAVE EVER KNOWN OF ME IS SLOWLY BUT SURELY SLIPPING AWAY!!!