Nonexistent

Let's pretend I don't exist
Makes it easier to me
It's not like I'm ever really here
At least, that's how it seems
I've called, I've begged, I've screamed for help
Stuck in this horrible dream
No one seems to have even heard
I think they all went running
Alone, alone
I don't want to be
Existing, but just barely
I can't do this on my own
Everybody has left me
I can't bring myself to care
I barely have energy to breathe
But none of this I should ever share
I just don't want this to be my ending
Heart is breaking, lungs collapsed
I'm tired of this constant struggling
I need someone who can hold me up
I swear to God I'm drowning
Death keeps coming, I can feel him
There's only so many times I'll escape
There's only so many times I'll continue fighting
I'll eventually admit defeat
Let's pretend I don't exist
And maybe it'll become a reality