A letter to you- Exposed

As the days go by I sit and watch each layer of your disguise sizzle away
exposing your corroded bones acidic blood and dererioted tissues.
As each layer disappears, I see how toxic you really are realizing that I was only your side bar.
Unconscious from overdose of your pheromones your hair wrap around my neck making me giggle from seduction then all of a sudden making me cry, but you're so evil so you sit and watch me struggle. Watch me fight as they suffocate the remaining life out my seemingly already lifeless body.
This seems all normal to you because you're fucking me but when you're done you look at me and smile .
Though I blame myself because at the end of each time I say it'll be the last but I'm in a disguise as well. Truely, I'm too vulnerable and soft hearted to stop you.
How crazy is it that you can glimpse me in the distance
As I watch you try to replace those missing layers with new lies you plan to cry to try explain the reasons why, to justify your if ands buts and maybes.
Then something always hits you and you realize you no longer need to explain
You just listen to me argue then you shut me out with an enthralling kiss as you grab my hips and say oh queen just enjoy what you feel.
But as each day go by I build this new courage
A new courage to keep getting a little bit closer to you instead of watching from a distance because there is clearly more that I'm missing because the only time I feel that your aren't dissing is when we're kissing.
One day I'll get close enough to help grab and scratch at your face to discover who you really are.
But until then
Until I expose you for who you really are
I'll build this confidence that wouldn't be manipulated when your hands run up my thighs
Or when your tongue slithers across my body
Or when your fingers satisfy my sexual urges.
It will be strong enough to with stand all of this.
No longer will I let you lick my parts and suck my clitoris
Because like a serpent you slither your dick and just move on
Selling me dream after dream in order to replace those layers that fall off each time you fuck me
My confidence will be so strong that when I walk away you won't be able to pull me by my arm pull my body against yours as you whisper soft words to me.
So strong that I will storm out of your life without you making me weak when you hold me around my waist and kiss all over my neck and bite my lips.
So strong that I won't be turned on by the way you lick your lips or even lick my tits!
It will be so mighty that when you push me against the wall and rush up on my body I will push back and scream NO!
So mighty that you'll realize what we had could have been real
But until I expose you for who you really are
I'll let you have your way.