Death B4 Dishonor

 
I've been mentally disabled
Ever since the cradle
I'm chronically unstable
And emotionally scarred
They wanna blame this psychosis
Upon my subconscious
But this diagnosis
Has thus far been flawed

They psychoanalysis me
They try to identify my disease
My life's already surreal
Without them making feel
Like I'm ready to kill
They brainwash me with lies
But now I see the light
They wanna label me
With a mental deficiency

Cyanide, suicide
My saliva liqueifies the pills
That I'm taking tonight

Cyanide, suicide
My saliva liqueifies the pills
That are taking my life

Death before dishonor
No surrender
I will not live in disgrace
I'd rather face annihilation
Then betray my dignity
Although I'm rendered under torture
I will never submit to the pain
There's no dishonor, in a soldier
Following the warriors creed

As I lay upon my deathbed
Breathing my last breath
Thoughts and memories
Swim around in my head
What would I give
For just one more chance to live
My wretched life once again
But it's outta my hands
Who am I to defy god's plans
Even if it's something
I can't understand
I demand to released
I'm a prisoner to pain
Its like a cancer within
And it's driving me insane
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
I was created from the earth
And in the end I will return
This I yearn
I am so jaded
My soul has faded
It has ascended
To a higher place
With no tears or fears
And no suffering
No misery
No hate, no war or strife
I'll rest in peace
For the very first time
Who needs eternal life
Its unlike me
To contimplate suicide
But I tried and tried
To live my life
Until I discovered
That I'm dying inside
Now i'm
Filled with resignation
Because my termination
Is so imminent
What I've sown
Now I shall reap

Death before dishonor
No surrender, I will not live in disgrace
I'd rather face annihilation
Then betray my dignity
Although I'm rendered under torture
I will never submit to the pain
There's no dishonor, in a soldier
Following the warriors creed

Cyanide, suicide
My saliva liqueifies the pills
That I'm taking tonight

Cyanide, suicide
My saliva liqueifies the pills
That are slowly taking my life