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One true love.
When the depression sets in to my world again, from life I refrain and can no longer conceal my pain.
There is no attempting to occupy myself with stupid little menial tasks, there is no acting in accordance by placing my face in a mask.
There is no showing a smile to cover up the despair on my face, there is no warmth for the cold has taken its place.
Sometimes I get stuck inside this black windowless room from which there seems no escape, and every so often I'm shown a new "way out", but I hesitate, and then it is to late.
Convincing myself I'm not in need of mental health help, I continue wallowing in the pity of my own personal self loathing committee.
With options dwindling I begin plotting my escape the only way I know how, and with my fix in the loom I'm no longer consumed and can rejoin the here and now.
Deciding to lick my wounds with a needle and spoon, allows me to start climbing up out of this dark empty tomb.
The notion becomes a thought and the thought soon becomes an obsession, to not act on it now would to be living life in regression.
With the leg work put in and the ritual begun, today love comes in brown powder and is warm like the sun.
Heroin sweet heroin you saved me from the depths of the abyss again, you are the only one for me you are my only true friend.
Holding me close when all others friends flee, comforting me within my all consuming misery.
3 years - 7 months & 12 days I've been clean to the day, free from your grip yet I still respect your play.
Cunning, manipulative by my side when I'm most in need of a friend, I steer clear of your grip now and will till the bitter end.
Published 20th Nov 2015
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20th Nov 2015 10:25pm
22nd Nov 2015 2:57am
This was awesome!
I can relate.. I've been clean for a little over three years now also... It is definitely always here by our sides, in front of our faces and behind our back. It's all around; never ending. Great write
I can relate.. I've been clean for a little over three years now also... It is definitely always here by our sides, in front of our faces and behind our back. It's all around; never ending. Great write
23rd Feb 2016 5:42am
