Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder why i'm still alive when all I like to do is talk shit and get high. Sometimes I wonder if i'll ever fucking change before someone takes a 12 gauge and blows out my motherfucking brains. Sometimes I wonder if i'll ever find true love so I won't have to smoke to feel higher than the angels above. Sometimes I wonder if my loved ones lives would be better if I bled to death from being stabbed multiple times causing every major artery to be severed. Sometimes I wonder if i'm as good of a person as everybody says I am when deep down I know the day I die i'll burn in hell and forever be damned.