Procrastination Problem

I think about doing things
And then decide they're too hard
So I don't bother
Because effort is too much
Then I regret it
And say I'll try again tomorrow
But I don't move
When tomorrow comes
I think I expect a new mood to set in
But it never does
Or maybe I'm content with wasting time
Who knows
All I know is
Procrastination is an art form
And I am skilled at it
I know how to draw things out well
Delay and evade
Because it's much easier to put things off
Than it is to talk myself into doing them

It of course is worse
When there are deadlines to meet
I'll get my act together then
I mean, eventually
But when there is no pressure
Eventually could be eternal
When I'm committed I'm efficient
I just sometimes take a while to start
But when the pressure is too much
It's like the will to try gets sucked out of me
As a result, starting never happens
Until it's too late
Or I'll force myself to do it
And the unhappiness is evident
Sometimes it turns out better than expected
Other times the complete opposite

This is especially strange because
When I know and like what I'm doing
I work hard with dedication
And I won't stop until it's done
Finishing the only goal
Doing it well, my objective
Determination guides me to accomplishment
And I get there with a smile
Then any ounce of exhaustion felt
Or stress that I've endured during the process
Seems to be worth it to me
Because I'm so happy with the outcome
Or what I've learned from the experience

If only I could apply that quality of persistence
To push me through every situation
Then perhaps I wouldn't be so incredibly skilled
At the art of procrastination
Because I'm pretty sure it's not an asset
Then again I haven't asked yet

Is it?

Of course it isn't
I just wanted to make myself feel better
But that failed
Probably because there wasn't enough determination there
And I just can't seem to get the drive
To invest in bullshit
Or what I think will be bullshit

Maybe that's the real problem

Solved!