TODAY

 For today
I wake recalling the truth in your eyes

I saw the hesitance and the longing
as you carefully inquired my heart

Of course, I still want to hug you...
it's all we have left.

but even as you carefully navigate conversation
keep our meetings to a strict 30 minutes
and set limits for how long we can hug,
I sense your struggle.....this is not our nature and you know it.

This is not who we are to each other.

We are so much more....
forced to fight against the lure
of the love we still harbor in our souls.

I cry as the lyrics to a song
keep echoing the truth of our love
and my heart wound is reopened.

"'Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need.

Chasing relentlessly
still fight and I don't know why.

If our love's a tragedy
then why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity
then why are you my clarity?"