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How I miss You my Darling's !

For Seven wonderful, beautiful months I carried You... I and Your little sister was so excited... Anxious to see Your little faces... To hold and love You... Everything we had all set up, ready for Your arrival... ultrasounds, healthy and strong... �Nursery done for boy and girl... Thought for sure, Your Daddy was happy that finally He was at least going to have one Son and another hopa, beautiful daughter... But, I was wrong.... awe, Seven beautiful months I felt You grow, kick.... Toss and turn about... Such mid-night cravings You two caused... Pickles, philli steak hogies dipped in apple sauce, my lord... How could I forget the orange juice poured over ice cream yum... Such heartburn You kept me with... Yet it was all worth it... Daddy stayed drunk, hurt mommy and sissy often... Kept having to try to protect her and You... He didn't like that mommy no longer couldn't serve and kneel at His back and call... While trying to protect Your sister one day, Daddy hit mommy so hard that she fell... Water gushed, legs stained red... Such pain, I cried... Others that was there rushed mommy and sissy where help was found... Yet only it was too late... Seven wonderful, beautiful months I carried You... Only to birth Your lifeless little souls... I asked, to see and hold You... The nurses was kind enough to dress and wrap You in little outfits with matching blankets, I had made... Two precious tiny little Angels they brought to me... I held You, singing a sweet lullaby as I kissed Your little faces... Trying to protect Your sister.... Her and I both lost You.... Tears I cry for how...
I will always miss You my Darling's!