Meadow of Mystery

Everything goes wrong as I try to be right,
To make it through the day I always have to fight,
Don’t know what’s wrong, sometimes I can’t even breathe,
I feel I’m suffocating from within me,
My eyes can't stop crying that soon they will start to bleed,
My heart can’t stop aching that soon it will not beat,
I’m just a lonely being, feeling nothing but astray,
It seems that I’m just drifting slowly far away,
Many times I just want to scream because I can’t bear it no more,
There a big weight inside that’s destroying me all the way to my core,
Bound in Invisible chains that I can’t break free,
Trapped behind a wall that I can’t even see,
 The bloody print on the wall are the tears from my fist,
 I feel that soon the blood on the floor will be tears from my wrist,
Something is keeping me back from moving on from me,
Like I’m just the muse for this life of hypocrisy,
Confusion only flows in my head,
To trust life itself I’m afraid,
Illusion is the only vision in my sight,
That I don’t know if dead or alive,
Life has been a deception and Death has forsaken me,
But the only thing that has stayed with me is despair and agony,
Melancholy will be my background of my portrait in life,
I‘ll continue be in the cold shadows until the sunrise,
As I stare at the horizon all I see is a meadow of mystery,
Covered by deception, somewhere out there the truth lies deep,