Sugar ain't sweet

Reckless intent goes through my nose
Joy rushes through my veins
Masquerade all my pain
Live intense just to die
Slowly
As I lose my pride
Intoxicants resurrect fallen courage
Just a coward deep down inside
Can't face the world with out escape
When you realize
Its just too late
 
My soul is bleeding
Its pouring through my nose
It forms a splash of my life
Departed
From the ones I love
They can't see what I've become
An addict
To my pain
Mortification caused by sin
Just a loser
Never win
In the end
I will descend
Away
Further from the pearls on those gates
As god rightfully negates
My entry
Dispatch my soul
Into the brilliant igneous abyss
I'll let you
The voices in my head
Say quit
But why?