It Hurts To Love You

It hurts to love you, to crave your essence, to solely live to be in your presence. I'm your shadow, behind you every step of the way. Singing sweet melodies to an empty cabaret. I'm bananas over you and you appeal to all my needs, wanting you more then my own will to breathe. I'm as mad as a hatter and you know how i flip, Mine as well buy me a plane ticket since i love to trip. It hurts to love you, but i strive through the pain, and i'd die for your kiss in the pouring rain, to be held in your arms while our hands are entwined to the fingertips. i wonder what you think when you hear my name trickle off of others lips. I don't ever want to lose you, but the harder i try, the harder i start to wonder why? But then i remember, because it hurts to love you, but no one would love you better or more then i do. Busting my butt to keep you happy, giving you what you deserve, trying to revive what died and keep it preserved. Don't you see? All i do, is truer than true, i could never want or love another the way i want and love you. I'm waiting day after day and night after night, to be only yours and from this we can take flight. Oh how i want nothing more. Yet the more you speak, the more i notice, how trance i am by your hypnosis. Don't get me wrong, your efforts are by far Dooley noted but as much as i give i deserve it back, written down and quoted! Your emotions are locked and you've hidden the key, I'm trying so hard to pick the code to set you free. I want to know that you miss me, That i'm beautiful to you, but the only time i hear that is when i say it to you! I know your distressed, all types of confused, been through so much that your ego is sorely bruised. Yet as hurt as you are, remember so am i. I wear a happy mask with a tear soaked face behind, blind to the pain that's engraved on my mind. If after all we've been through, i can still prove i love you, then surely i deserve no matter what to know that i can be loved too. It hurts to love you but i wouldn't have it any other way, hopefully one day you'll truly feel the same.