my mistake

in my life there has been many mistakes
some physical, others mental, but one tops others
three years ago i was addicted to drugs and lost control
i was stealing and selling and i was out of my mind
if i could change time it would be meeting that fate
i was once a person who would've died before smoking
yet at that moment i went blind and cowered inside myself
lost inside the control of the mind numbing substance
begging that i would find a way out and i would cherish it
after a year i finally did, a girl who helped me free myself
and i kept my word and cherished having her by my side
i was ready to give her my life..... then she took her own
i couldn't stop her and it took her death to realize
she was in the same problems i was.... i should have listened
and now i destroy all that was destroying me in her name