The Battle

I have the secrets to life In a book that I read In an undertone day and night
But even still It's difficult to avoid what's bad and do what's right
Everyday Is a constant fight
And somedays I Just wanna give up and give In
Its Just an ongoing battle that I feel like I can't win
I mean I know I can Its Just that some days I Just wanna stop trying
The stress Is to the point where I feel like I should be crying
But I don't
Or rather I won't
Either way I guess I'm Just too numb
But regardless of that I still gotta stay ready for whatever may come
That's why I Just write when I have things on my mind
All of this nonsense Is distracting me when really I need to get back on my grind
Because If I dwell on certain things my mind will collapse
And that would no doubt lead to another relapse
Perhaps I should I think about other things you might say
But It's not that simple and I gotta deal with this mess everyday
It would be nice If someone would Just let me know  that It's gonna be okay
But that's okay
I'm an Introvert so maybe I Just need some time to myself
The world can be so draining, I think I need a moment to re-accumulate my wealth
Because I actually do love myself
Even If I have been feeling worthless lately
I'm a bible reader so I already understand why the world hates me
It kinda sounds like I might be depressed?
I dunno these are Just some of the things I needed to get that off my chest