No Humanity

I sit there, hating myself as I think of you.
Love is nothing but a trap.
And I hate it. Love shows weakness in a world like this.
Everything I do, is for you.
It shows I have emotion.
Emotion is what caused me to be like this in the first place.
Heartless, cold, no humanity.
I enjoy not having any humanity, because it means no pain.
It means no salty tears run down my face,
because then, nothing matters.
But now all that matters is you, and I despise you for that.
You are my only thought, and I cannot stop.
You are in my lungs, and inhaling is the worst thing I could possibly do,
Because that would keep the thought of you alive, when I want you gone,
you fuck.  
All you do is drown me in the thought of you,
You are in my veins, and there is only one way to get rid of you.
But I won’t.
Because no matter how much I hate you,
I quite like this feeling, possibly.
It makes me believe in happiness, and maybe even a good life.
Even if I know it will never happen,
Because I am just another stranger in your life,
while to me, you are everything.
But I must stay strong, and lose all my humanity,
because that is the only way I will ever get through this.
No Humanity
No Humanity
No Humanity